Introduction

Welcome to the Anything and Everything Jersey and Winchester abuse case blog.

Please scroll past these initial links to get to the main blog or the post you have come to read.

This is a statement from last summer:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/statement-from-last-summer.html#.U81neeNdXhE


Here is a link to the four great letters:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/06/read-letter-day.html#.U81pF-NdXhE


Here is a collection of Open Letters:


http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/my-open-letters.html#.VSf_uNzF_Ic


Here is my psychological report from last year:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/03/13082013.html#.U81qVONdXhE


This is my Daily Blog running from October 2011 until now:

http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/


These are other people's blogs on my case:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/other-blogs-on-my-case.html#.U81oGuNdXhE


and


http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.com/p/voiceforchildrens-blogs-on-my-case.html


and:


http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/p/tonys-blogs.html#.U815deNdXhE


The blog itself is quite broken up, not written in an ordered fashion, a bit mixed up, like I am, talking about Jersey, the Diocese and my life.


Thank you for reading my blog, please persevere if it is at a bitty phase, go back and find what you are looking for in older posts, use the search button, or look at the favourite posts and links in the side bars.

The blog is heavy, I know, but the case is complex and the reality is that it has always been beyond me to get past the trauma and tell my story, so I am doing my best, in bits, to do so, as well as sharing related articles and links.

Basically:

  • I was abused in the Church of England as a vulnerable adult aged 19.
  • I was abused by the husband of a vicar who was also my counsellor, this vicar took me home as a replacement for her stepdaughter who her husband, the girl's father, had abused and abandoned.
  • I was further abused by another church officer.
  • The church tried to close my complaints down, refused to deal with them and left both abusers and those who stood up for them in church positions.
  • The church got me a criminal record for speaking up, they claimed I was harassing them.
  • I had never been in police trouble before, but as a result, I lost my home and job, and was left on the streets, injured by the police and severely traumatized.


  • Last year, years too late and the other side of me being destroyed, and while I was still homeless and destitute, the church launched on me in the National press, claiming to apologize.
  • They also launched in the press, a 'report' into what had happened. This report was hideously inaccurate although it did show how members of church had abused process in not dealing with my complaint.
  • The report, although not naming me, made it quite easy for me to be identified, I was one of very few autistic 33 year old women in the UK on the streets, and enough people who I met and was looked after by, knew who the report was about, and I lost friends and was shunned as a result.
  • I also had strangers condemning and maligning me, it was heartbreaking.
  • Then a church officer associated with my abuser, also in government, released my name and breached the data protection act.


  • As a result of the Press reports and the report released, an all-out war broke out between the Diocese and Deanery involved, with me caught in the middle, I was slandered, I was smeared, I was condemned.
  • The Church offered no help and I became ill as each new inaccurate report and cover up came out, each new damnation of me.
  • New investigations were comissioned, and one was blatantly conflicted, to be carried out by a member of the group who supported the wrongdoers.
  • I have been excluded from all reports, which, to save the church, are whitewashes which cover up the original admissions of wrongdoing.
  • The church have treated me coldly, threatened me, despite them having me illegally traced by police, and have not helped me, instead they made illegal referrals of me to what they called help, without my consent and without checking it would help or what I wanted.
  • I have pleaded with them to stop the harm to me, but to no avail, and I am living in fear, severely traumatized and knowing I cannot withstand the damning press reports and whitewashes forever.




Friday, 24 June 2016

European UNion

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yHNfvJc99YY

In the Second World War, the tiny but spirited nation of ours fought with Great courage and remained free.
And then handed ourselves over, begging to be part of the German European Union.
Because we were being Excluded, and we didn't like it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_uukBpYD9PU

Having worked in the farming industry, I know what the European Union has done to us, taken real industry and strangled it and left us on subsidies that are not relevant to the industry but have become something that we depend upon.

Leaving the European Union will sadly not make Britain Great again, they have bled us dry and the UK is a roiling mess, and now with an uncertain future with regards Trade and movement.
I think the vote, narrow as it was, was to do with desparation. There could be no winners either way.
Great Britain, it's history and it's industry and it's pride, is a dry dusty and finished place, and I have no wish to be here, but where am I allowed to go now? Now that I am not in the European Union?

The thing about this referendum is the fighting over it has been so nasty and vicious that it makes me wonder if this world is even worth living in, let alone this country. I have never heard or seen such bigotry and hatred and narrowness, people attacking each other just because they are each exercising their own view, but they don't want others to have a view.

Well, anyway, my concluding truth is that I had no wish to be ruled over by uncaring and unelected people who are basically Germany. The EU already place penalties and regulations on the UK that they do not enforce in other countries. We are still paying for being the UK, for being the country that won the Second World War, and for Charles De Gaulle not liking us.

Great Britain does not have enough industry left to sustain it, we will have to copy the channel islands and have Great Britain Cows, UK Royal Potatoes, corruption and a massive finance industry! :)

The Second World War changed every country that it touched, and the EU has left it's mark on the UK, we will never be what we are, and we are now in a dangerous and unstable situation. I doubt very much that there is a contingency plan. Everyone was too busy attacking each other to think of that.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4g84dejrJXI

Thursday, 23 June 2016

We have got to a stage in this nasty nasty game called 'who will launch on HG next?'

Sue Bowles and Bishop Crook, 

Do you think I need lies from a Bishop who has upheld a paedophile protector who is the lay chair of the Jersey synod?
Do you think I need lies from a Bishop who has upheld two paedophile protectors who have abused the press and dual church and States roles in order to harm a vulnerable adult?

I have made a complaint, and while Juliet Montague's ex-boyfriend, Bishop Trevor continues to lie about safeguarding and uphold wrongdoers and actually take part in very questionable activities in the church, he has nothing but lies.

Let me re-iterate, I have made a formal complaint against the behaviour of the Dean and Deanery of Jersey and that stands until it is actioned properly.

How long ago did I make this complaint? Well it has actually been a live complaint now for a number of years while the Jersey Deanery have been free to destroy me publicly and through the press, and Bishop Trevor's response to all this and the two paedophile protectors harming me from their conflicted church-government-judiciary positions was to abuse the press himself by claiming safeguarding in the churches was good. Backed by the Archbishop's upholding of this, despite neither Bishop Trevor nor the Archbishop ever having met me, heard my side or made sure my side was included in any of the conflicted whitewash reports.

Do you have any idea how traumatic it is to be contacted right now so that the Bishop can lie to me? I am homeless and destitute and destroyed after the recent onslaught against me by the church, press and complete strangers who attack me because of the lies in the press. 
It is too late for the church to make a pretence of response, and especially Juliet Montague's ex-boyfriend, Bishop Trevor.

Juliet used to really make us laugh when she came home with tales of the Bishop wooing her and their little times together, he was a joke even back then.

Seeing him in Jersey manipulating the vulnerable was shocking when I lived in jersey, he was really in with the very questionable activities such as the paedophile fest that couldn't possibly be anything to do with God, where the leaders got the children to lay hands on people. Safeguarding in Jersey is good? You should have seen the greasy paedophiles huffing and puffing their way to the front of the qeue, and that was normal in the Jersey church and undoubtedly still is, it is the one place where paedophiles and their protectors know, especially from watching me be destroyed, that they are pretty much invited to go in and pick out victims. Bishop Trevor abuses the press to openly uphold this, because gathering from Juliet Montague, his own morals are deeply skewed.

I would like to re-iterate my formal complaint against the Dean and Deanery of Jersey and remind Bishop Trevor that lying about safeguarding in the press whilst knowingly employing men who have put children at risk, is Godless and dishonest and harmful to me and other victims of church abuse.

I do not care for a response from a Bishop who is known to be devious and to uphold wrongdoers, did you see the showing off about his expensive new crook that the churches in Jersey bought him as a thank you for protecting their wrongdoing, what does that have to do with Christianity, wasting money on things that God would not condone instead of helping the poor? Pathetic, and to use the press for it? The modern day pharisees. Jesus turned the tables over in anger, 'two thousand years go by, still they cry 'crucify, crucify!' It is disgusting.

Now, for the past three years, Bishop Trevor has overseen the Jersey Deanery abusing their power and publicly destroying me, his response has been to lie in the press about safeguarding, thus further harming me. He upholds wrong and thus his belated 'response' after the recent attack on me from which I have no recovered, is about as valid as his claims about safeguarding.
Not valid at all.

Make sure he ensures a full independent investigation into my formal complaint. 
I know the church don't know what independent means, because they referred to Korris, Gladwin and Steel as independent and allowed those people's conflicts of interest to publicly destroy me. There has been no report that includes me and no independent and unbiased report. No apology has been made for the damage and the damage is now a serious threat to my life. 
Bishop Trevor's public upholding of the Jersey Deanery's corruption last year sparked an attack on me that nearly cost both me and Bob Hill our lives and according to Bob Hill, Bishop Trevor knows and doesn't care, hence any belated response hardly being credible. Let me remind you: 


While I am in severe crisis, I cannot take any more lies from the church and if you email again while I am fighting, with no money even for food, to keep a roof over my head, the consequences will be catastrophic, so please don't. Just make sure there is at last an independent report, after three years of Bishop Trevor overseeing and condoning his Jersey Deanery's public and illegal destroyal of me.
Safeguarding? What a joke!  And why are you trying to redeem Bishop Dakin? He should be sacked and he thinks he can save his skin through using me? He is pathetic.
Have any of you any idea of the seriousness of the situation, I am fighting to stay housed and fed, I have no money at all and no access to help, and why am I fighting when the damage the Archbishop and Bishops have done on top of the way I am branded makes my life completely worthless and the continued pretence of response after all these years by the church is catastrophic, because it is all lies, excuses and back covering, which compounds the damage. You are collectively putting my life at risk, it is a collective and collaborated effort, no mistake, and it really must stop and an outside investigation must be carried out.

Answer me this, why would the Bishop of Dover suddenly respond now? Where did you get my email addresses, Sue Bowles? Well you got them from three years of my emails to the crooked Bishop, as he has been known since that laughable showing off in the Jersey press.  So, why ignore me for three years and launch on me along with a load of other eager liars, Dakin, Tilby, Dodds etc, after the Archbishop has dealt me the death blow by showing how corrupt he is by apologizing to the Dean, having met the Dean and his powerful clique and bent to their version of events and never having met with me?!
It gets ridiculous and it gets pathetic, the damage is done to me, the damage is too much for me to heal from now, you know when you see an animal with it's head hanging and you know the kindest thing would be to shoot it? That is how I am, and nothing the Bishops or coverup board says is really relevant. I may well be unable to go on fighting for my life, my back really is broken, but I want an independent report into everything that has happened to me in the church, not least the abuse of power by conflicted members of the Jersey Deanery, and the Bishop of Dover's bullshit will not change that.

Please make sure the following small sample of relevant statements and letters below  reach the independent inquiry when Bishop Willmott wakes up again and remembers to call this inquiry, in three years time? After my shamed, disgraced and branded death?

By the way, Tilby and Dodds, I am sick of this bombardment when you know I am in crisis, and what is it in aid of? Lies and cover-up, not my welfare or a proper response to my complaint.

HG







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Wednesday, 22 June 2016

Jersey Safeguarding Partnership and the NSPCC

22/06/2016

I did a taped Statement about Jersey's safeguarding Partnership and letters to go with it, and it is all set up ready to send.  Anyone who would like a copy of the taped statement, please ask. Although I am not well off, money isn't that important when my life is close to ending.

But in the meantime a much darker matter has come up.

Do you remember John Cameron, head of children's services at the NSPCC being illegally and inappropriately involved in my case on behalf of the Diocese of Winchester?

Refresh your memory here:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2015/03/bob-hill-julie-wallman-and-nspccletter.html#.V2o5RvkrLcc3

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/statement-world-about-what-really-happened-me-november-2013

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/1st-open-letter-bishop-winchester-0

Anyway, I made a complaint to the NSPCC regarding this inappropriate abuse of power by John Cameron and the Diocese of Winchester, the 'referral' by the Diocese of a vulnerable adult to a children's service without consent was illegal and inappropriate. Cameron's acceptance of the referral and the Diocese's cover up to him and his unsolicited contact was equally inappropriate and illegal, he aided the Diocese in harassing me while they were harming me as described in the links below.

For three years the NSPCC have received my complaint and I have a file of automated replies to my emailed complaints, they have never responded to my complaint though.

A children's services director has no place in the case of a vulnerable adult unless something inappropriate is going on.

Now as you know, part of the onslaught against me in 2013 was Jersey Safeguarding Partnership doing a very swift whitewash of my case after Jane Fisher and Bishop Dakin liaised with Stewart Gull of Jersey Police, it was very strange and very frightening as the safeguarding board boasted to a member of the public that they had cleared the wrongdoers, while the police officer, Gull 'appointed' by the Bishop to illegally liaise with Dame Steel was also on the safeguarding board who did this swift whitewash and boast.

Did anyone factor John Cameron into this? Did anyone put two and two together about his position in the NSPCC and thus being a colleague of both Jane Fisher and the Jersey Safeguarding partnership and realise that this terrible corruption and conflict of interests could be even worse?
I had no idea, until yesterday.

Jersey Safeguarding Partnership have been threatening me with their whitewash report for three years now, while I have been under threat of the Church's whitewash reports, having already been destroyed by one of them.
If you need more information on the safeguarding partnership's terrorism of me, please read these:

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/open-letter-jerseys-safeguarding-partnership-board

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/formal-public-letter-mrs-glenys-johnstone-obe-chair-jersey-safeguarding-board

I guess I never imagined that Cameron's violation of me was more than a one-off 'colleagues' back-scratching exercise between him and the disgraced former safeguarding director, Jane Fisher of the Winchester Diocese.
But gathering by what has happened, John Cameron did more than just violate me during the onslaught against me in October and November 2013, an account of which is available here:

http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/statement-world-about-what-really-happened-me-november-2013

Anyway, the NSPCC failed to respond to my complaint for three years, but after persisting in questioning them about what was claimed by the Diocese of Winchester about the NSPCC being able to house me, they finally replied to that query, and said they didn't house adults. Which I knew, but Bob Hill was duped into believeing that the NSPCC were going to house me, as you will have seen here:
http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2015/03/bob-hill-julie-wallman-and-nspccletter.html#.V2o5RvkrLcc3

The above link is not well presented but my mind was too distressed when I created it.

So anyway, on the tail end of the recent catastrophic press and media harm to me by the Church in the last few months, Jersey's safeguarding partnership start once again harassing me over their desire to publish their whitewash and further harm me. They have learned nothing and have ignored my persistent complaint and are determined to add to the public attack on my character in order to tick their boxes, despite damning reports recently on their own failures with children.
Their whitewash report on me has become a form of bullying, abuse and harassment that has contributed to the harm to me. What happens to the voiceless vulnerable? Especially when this is the way a 'serious case review' is carried out?! Shocking and unacceptable.

So what do you do when faced with something like this? Well you look for authorities who oversee such misconduct and harm, don't you?
Who oversees Jersey's safeguarding partnership? The conflicted council of ministers, most of whom are in the church!
Who else? Well I can keep putting my case to the home office, can't I? Theresa May is a Vicar's daughter.
Well I contacted as many social services and safeguarding boards in the country as I could, but I have been treated appallingly by social services who also were influenced by and acted for, the Church of England in my case, and have refused to protect me from harm by the church, and of course, being inextricably linked to the police, social services and safeguarding do not protect a victim of abuse of power by the church and police.
But I found that there is a government serious case review panel, so I sent them my complaint.
Unfortunately they meet only once a month.
So, I noticed that Peter Wanless was part of this panel, and I contacted him directly, despite the bad things I have heard about the NSPCC that he also is CEO of. This is because the serious case review panel meet only once a month and the safeguarding partnership are terrorizing me for their whitewash report here and now.

It's funny, the NSPCC have a very bad helpline and haven't responded to my complaint against John Cameron for three year. They are inaccessible and unhelpful, but Peter Wanless responded by telling me to phone the NSPCC helpline. No, not for a serious case review matter, as I told him, so I emailed him the details.

The next thing I knew, John Cameron was emailing me, and I was sick.
Peter Wanless handed this matter over to THE DIRECTOR OF CHILDREN'S SERVICES IN THE NSPCC, THE SAME MAN WHO HAD ACTED UNDER JANE FISHER'S INSTRUCTIONS THREE YEARS AGO AND HAD THREE YEARS OF UNANSWERED FORMAL COMPLAINTS AGAINST HIM!

My case is not a children's services matter, it is a case of a vulnerable adult being hounded towards death by whitewash reports and misleading press releases and being discredited and destroyed. Now this has been going on since six months before John Cameron was wheeled in as part of the cover-up. Why is a member of children's services in the NSPCC being repeatedly brought into this case?!
This is not an NSPCC matter, this is a serious case review matter, and something is seriously wrong when this man Cameron keeps popping up.

I got the impression yesterday that Cameron is a bit like a cover-up hitman, he is actually hired in to protect wrongdoers in safeguarding, but is really being a bit blatant in involvement in an adult case when he is a children's service manager, and I do object as it is too inappropriate and too blatant. As the complainant, I have a right to see him withdrawn from interfering, and an apology made. Because his re-involvement means it is being made quite clear that Jersey Safeguarding Partnership's behaviour will be upheld while I will be discredited and continue to be treated as mad and bad. After all, Cameron blatantly acted on behalf of the Diocese of Winchester in their nwrongdoing and had their side of things, he is conflicted. And if Peter Wanless didn't know that, he should know that, because his NSPCC have received three years of formal complaint and failed to respond, leaving Cameron to re-abuse me and presumably act in the interests of wrongdoers yet again.

Cameron's re-involvement shows Peter Wanless's and the NSPCC's contempt for my case in one way or another and that I remain at risk of this whitewash that Gleny's Johnstone boasted to a member of the public to 'clear wrongdoers' after this remarkably swift report was carried out without consulting me or including me, and I was contacted as an afterthought when the report was finished and because a Jersey deputy kept badgering the corrupt officer Stewart Gull about it.

Now, the question is, did Cameron actually arrange this whitewash with the safeguarding partnership? After all, he was working with Jane Fisher to harm and violate me and treat me as an object, Jane Fisher is known to have co-ordinated the tandem Steel and Safeguarding Partnership whitewashes with Officer Gull as the link between the two, did Cameron also abuse his power to oversee that uncannily swift discrediting of me in the form of the safeguarding partnership half of the whitewash?

Or was the fact that he remained unreprimanded to jeer by contacting me yesterday about the complaint sent to Peter Wanless in a serious case review capacity just a coincidence?
If it was, then it shouldn't have happened, because I have made a formal complaint against Cameron for three years.
Cameron has no right to conflict and jeapordize my complaint when he has acted on behalf of the people who have harmed me and is biased by their side, that he took in so well that he contacted me on their behalf while they were seriously harming me.
This is Jane Fisher who he acted for before:
 http://www.opnlttr.com/letter/jane-fisher-safeguarding-director-winchester-diocese

What happens to the voiceless vulnerable?

So the situation is that I have been left sickened and incapacitated at a time when I need all my energy to ensure I do not end up as a long term rough sleeper after the recent destroying attack on me by the Church of England and the press.

Peter Wanless has some questions to answer, although judging by his response so far, he has no intention of either answering them or dealing with Jersey Safeguarding Partnership's wrong actions.

These are the questions:


  • Why did the NSPCC leave John Cameron in a position to harm me again after his unethical actions on behalf of the defendants?
  • Why has the NSPCC failed to respond to my complaint for three years?
  • Why did you pass a complaint to YOU in YOUR CAPACITY on the serious case review to an NSPCC manager?
  • Why was it passed to the head of children's services when this is a vulnerable adult serious case review?! 
  • Is it co-incidence that it was passed to someone who acts for the defendants and is prejudiced by that and now in a position to prevent justice and protection and allow harm to me?!
  • Do you think it is acceptable that you allowed this man to terrorize and distress me when I am in a very vulnerable position when your transfer of my complaint from a government board to a charity is illegal?!
  • Peter Wanless are you going to take my case seriously with Cameron influencing your view? Are you going to withdraw this matter from the NSPCC as it was submitted to your serious case review panel and are you going to deal with it fairly or deliberately fail to protect me and uphold the corruption and deceit of Jersey Safeguarding Partnership?
I will circulate this because in the end, when I die, someone will co-ordinate all these letters and things will have to change, no child or vulnerable person should be met with this level of corruption, failure or denial, and if the NSPCC routinely allow Cameron to be hired out as a cover-up hitman to derail complaints and cover up for wrongdoers, something has got to change.
Jane Dodds and Graham Tilby who have been overseeing my destroyal on behalf of the Bishop and Archbishop will be sent a copy of this to see how they can cover it up. 

Dishonesty, corruption and lack of action have left a vulnerable adult irreparably and seriously harmed, but what happens to the voiceless vulnerable?

To Conclude, these were my recent responses to the Safeguarding partnership, and also my psychological report:




The production of this letter when I should be at work and am homeless and trying to get myself housed is a great inconvenience as is making the very long journey to post the transcripts safely. Right now I am supposed to be making sure a disabled person can have a shower safely, so this safeguarding failure has far-reaching affects and impacts on other people.

Also please note, just as the Bishop refuses to release a copy of the conflicted Steel report to me, the safeguarding partnership refuse to let me see their whitewash. It's all a bit too blatant, and John Cameron's re-entry onto the scene is too. This complaint is not to be rubbished by someone who thinks the same as the church, that they can claim to offer 'help' to me while destroying me publicly and through whitewash reports. No help can reach someone being destroyed in this way, it is a back-covering excuse to offer it, and it is twisted and sick.
Children do not have the voice that I do, what happens to them at the hands of the church, NSPCC and safeguarding partnership?



HG





Monday, 20 June 2016

Brother

Brother are you there?
You are in my dreams this night
the snow and the salt and the sand
of St. Clements Bay where she died

Brother Can you hear me?
She is calling for help
but her cries are getting fainter
and the horror that was, still is

Brother can you wake?
Can you hear my screams?
through the salt and the snow and the dark
I can't bear it any more

Brother can you come up here
take her in your arms
make the darkness of St Clements bay turn to light
bring an end to the dark

Brother do you remember the dark
St. Clements, 2am in the morning
Time stopped then but she is waiting
when will the end come, when will there be peace?

Brother can you command her rest?
Take her from the sand and the salt and darkness
lay her to rest at St. Ouen
St. Clements Bay is frozen in the snow

Brother you were there when she died
frozen on the dark bay
the sand and the salt and the sea
so please take her to rest at St, Ouen

Brother where is she?
Dreaming of the sunlight
she is a child again, running to her father's arms with joy
the lights of Corbiere and Casquets beaming bright, home forever

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jszz8SEORr8


Disclaimer. This poem is about unresolved grief and the horrific damage HG has suffered, it is also about platonic love and separation. It is not about suicide. The Church of England and their allies have and undoubtedly will again, try to have HG put away on any excuse to save their own skins, don't let a cry of grief be that excuse.

Friday, 17 June 2016

Jo Cox

Apology, I repeatedly got Jo's husband's name wrong, which shows the state I am in. I am sorry. 

A bit outside of the scope of my blog but I thought this would be an exercise in writing to help try to bring me out of my stupor. The stupor is because the church and press and safeguarding board relaunched their attack and destroyed the tattered remains of my life.

Yesterday afternoon, or was it lunchtime. Sitting here in the stupor that the severe trauma of the latest onslaught by the Church, press and 'safeguarding partnership' have caused. I was on twitter.
Breaking news started that 'an MP had been shot'.

My image was of a gunman randomly firing into a crowd and just happening to hit an MP who was out and about in the town. I thought it might be a gang war type thing.

It wasn't very long before details began to emerge.

The MP, Jo Cox, had obviously been specifically targeted, and not only shot but also stabbed.
Someone else was injured, but not much has been said about that. But at the time, Jo had been rushed to hospital and was in critical condition.

The news told of scenes of panic as people tried to get away from the gunman, and how the gun was a makeshift gun.
How did this man get or make a makeshift gun? Well unfortunately it is possible to get weapons in the UK, I remember hiding behind a car with my brother when a madman with a crossbow went past when I was 14. That was life back then.

Anyway, I was kind of out of my stupor by then,  Talking on twitter to other horrified people, including those who encouraged me to play on the swear machine, disrespectful? Maybe but maybe necessary, how can people come to terms with such horrifying news? I needed something to release pressure. So I played on the swearword generator with my pals.

What a horrifying thing to happen.

Jo Cox was on the news last year at the general election, with her reaction to being elected. I remember her trying to express her reaction to her election. She was so alive and happy.

The thing was with Jo Cox, and I don't mean this as a useless smear on some other MPs, she was actually qualified to represent people, she had a track record of public and voluntary service and she knew and understood human problems and suffering, she cared. It feels to me as if some MPs went to top boarding schools and have had everything handed to them on a plate and do not have the same experience that Jo did, they qualified as MP's by their social status not life experience. Jo lived in the very real world and used that in her work as an MP, for example in her speech on refugee children, she talked about how if those were her children suffering like that, she would do anything to get them out of that situation. Her work with the NSPCC and other charities meant she really knew about human problems and she really qualified as an MP because she could represent people and she continued her community work whilst also being an MP.

Jo Cox was attacked as she left an advice surgery that she was holding for her constituents. She didn't provoke an attack as someone suggested early on, and no-one can 'provoke' an attack in that way, because no one has a right to such violence. People say such stupid things about tragedies and injustice sometimes.
And of course the debate is in full spate now with stupid things being said all round.

Tragically Jo died within a few hours of the attack on her.
When that news broke, all I could think of was that someone had to go and tell her children, and that made me feel sick.
I may be autistic and with reactive attachment disorder and having only known hell in terms of family, but I care about human beings, I can't love them, I am close to being affectionless but I can care, and I do. And maybe I care more since the lesson of Bob Hill collapsing while trying to defend me. I have fought in spirit and prayer for Bob Hill's life for six months and the only good thing that has happened recently is that he has recovered enough to be safe home with his family.

Mothers are very important, children need them. What a lame thing to say, but it's true.
Jo Cox's husband was incredible in the statement he released, advocating fighting the hate and not taking part in it. It was a profound statement for someone who had just lost his wife to hatred. He and Jo obviously shared the same values, values that are vital in this world where selfishness is overwhelming. Jo and Brendan cared about people, and Jo became an MP because she cared. The world becomes more cold and with Jo's death, we can't afford to lose people like that.

One of the horrible arguments over Jo's death is that there were claims that the attacker shouted 'Britain First'. This has been used to start political fights. Firstly, why would the gunman shout that, while killing a British MP? Secondly, no one who murders a person has the interests of Britain at heart. Thirdly, someone deranged enough to kill doesn't represent anyone unless they are very sick.
And fourth, why use this alleged shouting by the gunman as politics?  A woman is dead, a wife, a mother, someone who cared and represented the vulnerable.

Someone claimed that the arresting officers heard the gunman shouting this, but seeing as they arrived some time later and had to chase him, that is a bit silly.

Then the vicious fighting to do with this being to do with the European Union, and then it is used politically. A human being is dead, and the fighting and viciousness over the European Union so far has shown Britain at it's worst, people need to grow up a bit. And you simply can't be psychopathic enough to use a tragedy as ammo in a fight that has already gone into the sewers.

The other dreadful happening regarding the attacker and the press is the use of his 'mental illness'.
Now let me be realistic and non-controversial. There is no doubt that this man was mentally ill, anyone who kills in cold blood is either deranged, psychopathic, or evil and aware of what they are doing.
I do not know if the murder was pre-meditated. But I am sure the man was seriously mentally ill.
However, the misuse of the word 'mental illness' by the press and public without discrimination can be a slur on all people with mental illnesses. Mental illness covers a range of conditions from anxiety to psychopathy, and a vast majority of people with mental health problems wouldn't dream of committing violent acts.
So to use Mental illness as a reason for the murder without distinguishing between types of mental illness or actually name the illness.  The press should be more responsible than to spread stigma.

I myself have been slurred and smeared as 'mentally ill' by the wrongdoers in my case, as an excuse for themselves, which is terrible and very damaging.

I hope that Jo's husband and children manage to cope and are well supported. My thoughts are with them. Jo's husband's statement regarding fighting the hatred was a brave statement from someone bereaved in such a way. I hope that the children are able to grow up feeling the same, because as well as such a public tragedy, the media attention will be overwhelming.

I have just read that a forensic psychologist claims that most people who attack politicians are mentally ill loners. It is terrible how deep this horrible attitude goes. I could be considered a loner because I can't cope with people and I prefer long hours of silence alone, the Jersey Deanery have tried to make me out to be mentally ill in the stigma and mad sense, and I suffer PTSD, but I don't attack politicians, I don't like violence. I don't like the church of england abusing their power and abusing me, but I have no intention of attacking them, just persisting in asking for justice.
Generalisations about mental illness are inappropriate in this day and age especially from people in authority, and such attitudes don't help and they make life harder for vulnerable people with mental health concerns.

Now the headline is that the killer had neo-nazi links. I will refrain from mentioning the Church of England at this point, I think people will speculate and argue and the press will have a field day, that is what happens.
A caring woman with a family who loved her is dead. That is the real headline and the real news, never mind argument or speculation.

Here is the statement and tribute by Jo's husband Brendan c/o The Independent Newspaper, if you haven't seen it yet, please do:

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/crime/jo-cox-dead-brendan-cox-statement-in-full-response-a7086226.html












Tuesday, 14 June 2016

Jersey Paedophile Protectors

Dear Jersey Peadophile Protection Board,

Send your 'report' about me to other safeguarding boards, explain to them about how it is conflicted and how Fisher liaised with Gull and how Dakin 'appointed' Gull, make sure this is out in the open, but not in the sense of your intended discrediting attack on me on behalf of the church and police.
Also, as asked, send your whitewash report to me for my court case against you.
And while you are at it, you aren't blind, Philip Bailhache was unable to defend his protection of paedophiles when challenged, and you saw his public attacks on me and use of his dual roles in states and church, why haven't you acted? Furthermore why have you not informed the church of england of the safeguarding risk that Philip Bailhache is?
You have only been proving my point and it is more evidence for the court. 

HG

Monday, 13 June 2016

Reaction to Jersey's Safeguarding Partnership

Bishops Dakin and Gladwin, safeguarding board, Church of England,

You will be held responsible in court if Johnstone and the Bishop's 'appointed' police officer Gull do not leave me alone and stop threatening me with their whitewash.

This message is also for the IPCC and HMIC and Police Complaints who have failed to deal with this matter for years and have not dealt with either the police's harm of me or the refusal by the police to protect me from harm by the Church. I re-iterate that I want protection from the Church and the associated people named in the forwarded email and I want my complaints against Jersey, Hampshire and Sussex Police forces dealt with, belatedly is better than never. The way I have been brutalised and mistreated by the police and their continued act of treating me as mad and failing to protect me after acting as thugs for the Church is not acceptable and it is still harming me. 

The press  article where the Bishop abused his title in the house of Lords is still available waiting for the day when we discuss in court how the Bishop used a police officer to illegally access my records and 'by co-incidence' it was the same officer who worked with Glenys Johnstone to whitewash the 'safeguarding report'.

'The Lord Bishop of Winchester has 'appointed Stewart Gull of Jersey Police..' 

Do you think a Bishop who is part of an organisation who has used the police to destroy an abuse victim should be allowed to 'appoint' a police officer to illegally access that abuse victim's police records on behalf of the conflicted person whitewashing the case for police and church? And despite my very loud disagreement to this? What do you think of the co-incidence that the same officer was on the safeguarding board who whitewashed the case and are now harassing me as part of the unbearable onslaught of the last few months? Stewart Gull, Jersey Police's Head of Coverup and corruption.

Despite my use of bad language, the email below has to be sent to the same courts and services who I am begging to protect me from the Bishop of Winchester and Archbishop of Canterbury, because I am losing my life at the hands of the church and their police, and the damage is too much. Wouldn't you swear if your life and welfare remained under persistent and constant threat? 

The email below contains a complaint that is interlinked with the serious formal complaints of the last few days, Johnstone and Gull are just belatedly kicking off as part of the recent onslaught against me by the church.

And to make things worse, having to give attention to this matter is affecting my ability to find myself a new home, as the recent onslaught left me homeless again and because of the abuse of me by the church and police and safeguarding board, I am too weak to sleep rough any more even though it is the only way I have of feeling safe from the church.

Presumably the step-up of attack on me by Gull and Johnstone is a response to my step-up of formal complaint against the Church of England. The whitewash reports and smears and discrediting of me in the press and media can no longer be referred to as misconduct and must now be referred to asabuse. Each and every person harming me is an abuser
These people have publicly destroyed a vulnerable abuse survivor for three years, not her abusers, who they protected.

In the meantime, While this complaint is under consideration, Gull and Johnstone cannot publish their attack on me, so they are better off shredding it and going to the Jobcentre to find work away from Children and the vulnerable.

HG


From:**************@gmail.com
Date: Mon, 13 Jun 2016 16:34:11 +0100
Subject: SERIOUS FORMAL COMPLAINT OF ABUSE AGAINST JERSEY'S SAFEGUARDING BOARD, RISK TO A VULNERABLE LIFE AND WELLBEING

SERIOUS FORMAL COMPLAINT AGAINST JERSEY'S SAFEGUARDING BOARD, RISK TO A VULNERABLE ADULT'S LIFE AND WELLBEING
Autistic and traumatised vulnerable adult at ongoing risk from abusers, Glenys Johnstone and Stewart Gull from Jersey WHO WISH TO PUBLICLY DESTROY HER.

Dear Home office and other independent and neutral recipients, please excuse me swearing but I have been seriously damaged and harmed by this safeguarding sham board for over three years. I will also publish this on my blog. I guess I will have to also alert IPSO and Ofcom that Gull and Johnstone intend to continue the press and media abuse of me, in a small island where all the victims who they publish reports on are easily recognisable, me especially as I have been named, traced, threatened, hated, condemned and trolled as a result of Gull and Johnstone's colleagues in the police and church for some time now.
 Publication of the whitewash means another open attack on me by the press and media while the church and police pat themselves on the back and absolve themselves at my expense. The report, the same as the Steel report, is nothing to do with the reality of what happened, and Johnstone has made a statement to that effect to a member of the public, thus breaching the data protection act.

A note for social services in Jersey, you are allowing me to be abused by Gull and Johnstone again. You are liable. You have allowed too much abuse already, and if you claim I am not in Jersey and thus it is not your problem, that would explain years of UK paedophiles using Jersey as a child shop and is not an excuse anyway. The abusers, Gull and Johnstone, are using the safety of Jersey, or so they think, to abuse me. The complaints already made still stand, it is just that there is further misconduct as the IPCC and complaints authorities and safeguarding chairs have failed to act thus far and will be asked again to act.

The whitewash report was done in conjunction and in tandem with the Church of England's whitewashes and thus it is hardly surprising that they are trying to force publication of it now, it is, despite this being illegal, to be used by conflicted Bishop John Gladwin, along with the Steel whitewash, to defame, destroy and discredit me to cover up for wrongdoers in the Church. And my response to the Church's recent attack on my life in the press and media will have lead to the harassment against me by Johnstone, demanding a meeting today. I am sure the church don't like me speaking truth to power, but as the onslaught drives me slowly and horrifically to my death, I have no choice.

Several months ago I re-iterated a formal complaint against Jersey's failed and disgraced safeguarding board and their police officer Stewart Gull and their 'independent chair' (what a joke) Glenys Johnstone, who have harassed and intimidated me over their whitewash report for years, they work closely with the Church of England and police who destroyed me and presumably members of the Church such as IAN GORST who will be disappointed in the other whitewash, the conflicted Steel report not being released, will be pushing for this completely biased whitewash by the conflicted Stewart Gull and his 'safeguarding board' to be released. 

Any report overseen by an officer of the States of Jersey Police is not valid as the corrupt and brutal force who destroyed me in conjunction with the Church for reporting abuse, have a lot to hide. And according to Johnstone's open boast to a bystander, a member of the public, Bob Hill, 'The police have done no wrong'. How can the police investigate themselves? Especially a force that is so corrupt that the IPCC actually had to fly a team of investigators to Jersey to have the force investigated, and an investigating officer told me she was 'horrified' at what was going on in Jersey's police force and it was 'unreal'.


Here are the formal complaints that I also published as open letters. The letters were much more clear and coherent because they were before what seems to be the real final combined effort by the Church and 'safeguarding partnership; to force me to my death, the email I am writing now is from someone truly at the end of their tether.


and


and also:


Jersey 'safeguarding' what a joke board have just emailed me also trying to force me into a meeting with the disgraced 'independent chair' as if I was not suffering enough from the Church of England's recent onslaught against me and abuse of me in the press and media. Their report on my case is merely an exercise in cover-up. It is to be destroyed and never to be published, it is completely irrelevant and was a deceitful waste of time and money and there is to be an investigation into why I have been harassed and terrorised by Johnstone and Gull. And why public money was spent on their attack on me. The government don't seem able to acknowledge that the police can be corrupt and abusive and should not be able to influence safeguarding because of the risk to victims and witnesses, especially in a case like mine, when the conflicted police have been able to use the safeguarding whitewash to cover their backs and terrorize me. I want an independent investigation over the whole matter, from church to police to safeguarding, it is time for disciplinary actions and for me to be heard.

The Church of England have for over three years terrorized me with conflicted whitewash reports and defamatory and discrediting press releases, culminating in the recent all-out discrediting and smearing of me when the Archbishop, who has never met me or heard my story or ensured it is included in a report that isn't just a whitewash like the others, met with the Dean and his powerful and conflicted church-lawyer-states-judiciary clique repeatedly and 'apologized to the Dean' publicly and with only one side of the story and no thought for my welfare whatsoever.
Presumably the Johnstone attack on me today, the sham safeguarding board attack is as a result of the Jersey dignitaries not getting their Steel report, so they decided for second best, the Gull and Johnstone safeguarding whitewash that discredits me, and presumably Johnstone wants to publish this to avenge them, breaking the law as I am recognisable from it just as I have been recognizable from the press and media attacks and traced by name, and threatened.
Remember, Ian Gorst a church member who upheld the Dean and has publicly campaigned for the release of the Steel whitewash, actually instigated the Johnstone and Gull whitewash himself, so it can in no way be seen as neutral.

In 2013 the sham safeguarding board tried to force me into a meeting to tick boxes AFTER writing their whitewash and AFTER GULL HAD SMEARED AND DISCREDITED ME IN THE PRESS ON BEHALF OF THE JERSEY DEANERY AND DIOCESE OF WINCHESTER. I REFUSED. THEY HAD ALREADY BOASTED TO BOB HILL THAT THEY HAD CLEARED THE POLICE,AND GULL HAD DISCREDITED ME IN THE PRESS BY CLAIMING THAT THE CHURCH WARDEN HAD NO CASE TO ANSWER.
If you remember, this is what Gull based his lie on, not fact nor trial nor evidence:

The only reason for this repeat attack three years later  is because Johnstone and Gull want to publish her whitewash report done to cover up for the police, and done in conjunction with Stewart Gull of the conflicted police, Gull publicly smeared and attacked me in the press alongside the Jersey Deanery. Nothing has been done to discipline either Gull for his actions, or Johnstone for proceeding with a whitewash report, smearing and discrediting me to a member of the public, Bob Hill, and trying to contact me as an afterthought after claiming the police had done nothing wrong.

Jersey Safeguarding failure board, Fuck off, stop harassing me and I will be taking legal action if you do me any further harm. How many times do I need to re-iterate this? Why are Gull and Johnstone still not sacked after their illegal actions and not just failures to safeguard but harm to children and to me by their failures! 
I am sick to death of you and your pathetic threat to my life, welfare and wellbeing. You do not have my consent to break the law and harass me after what you have already done to me and know very well my feelings about this, you have just PUT THE PHONE DOWN ON ME, HAVEN'T YOU?!

I am copying Dodds and Tilby and others in on this because I consider this to be part of the recent attack on my life. The violations of me by Gull and Johnstone are never mutually exclusive, they always push for their whitewash or smear me during attacks on me by the press, media and Jersey Deanery.

and also, because the 'independent chair' whitewashed my case with the police, how can you investigate the police through one of their own?!
Make sure you whitewash report that you have been threatening me with is shredded as it is simply an attack on me and doesn't remotely relate to my case, it is just part of a prolonged and extremely nasty abuse of power smear campaign that Johnstone has been warned about for years.
Also, because I have made complaints about this for three years now, make sure the whole matter including the re-iterated forcing on me today is sent to an independent auditor, as I asked the woman at Jersey Safeguarding Board who just put the phone down on me. Make sure it is sent outside of Jersey and outside of Johnstone's juristiction in Leicestershire, where she won an OBE for protecting some of the most high profile abusers of all time. Hey, I was their victim, I know she didn't act.

I am going to file for an injunction as Johnstone has instigated the attack and she is resident in the UK, Stamford? I slept in her porch before she put the homeless spikes up.
Johnstone you will receive a last letter of warning, and unless you apologise and bring your harassment of me to an end, you will be taken to court. I am happy to file in Jersey with an English judge presiding as well. 

How dare the safeguarding failure board relaunch on me at a time of severe crisis! How dare they! They are nothing but a bunch of conflicted cowardly liars, led by one of Greville Janner's medal-winners and a corrupt police officer who has deliberately publicly smeared me. How FUCKING DARE THEY RELAUNCH THEIR ATTACK! 

You do not 'propose a meeting' to someone who you have injured publicly and harassed and made to live in fear. you just simply do not.
The only reason you have come up with this fake proposal is because instead of dismissing the disgraced corrupt officer and non-independent Johnstone, you are determined to force me into a box-ticking exercise and then release your whitewash attack on me. Tough shit, you are not meeting with me, why should I meet with repulsive corrupt liars as part of a whitewash? Fuck off. Three years of suffering your smears of me and the threat of your whitewash and now your corrupt church-judiciary-lawyer circle want a consolation prize for the Steel report? No, If you destroy me, I will make sure you go too, I am not having you left as a danger to the vulnerable when your failures in child care cases has led to children being abused beyond repair. The recent damning report into your failures means you have no credibility and no excuse whatsoever to go on harassing me. I have suffered beyond bearing, especially recently and this is the final straw.

You do not and never will have permission from meto release your whitewash and you do not and will not ever have the excuse that you 'tried to include me' because you did not, you wrote the whitewash before you even made a token effort to contact me as an afterthought in 2013/2014. No one who has harmed me has any right to request a meeting with me under any circumstances, I am not meeting with this cold psychopath Johnstone who claims to be in a safeguarding position while knowingly harming a vulnerable adult to protect wrongdoers. I am furious and sickened at this renewed onslaught.

JOHNSTONE AND GULL, 
YOU ARE ABUSERS WHO HAVE MADE MY LIFE HELL BY MAKING IT CLEAR TO ME THAT I AM UNDER THREAT FROM Y0UR WHITEWASH RELENTLESSLY FOR THREE YEARS WITH NO REGARD FOR MY DISTRESS WHATSOEVER.
YOU HAVE NO RIGHT WHATSOEVER TO PUT ME UNDER LIFE-THREATENING PRESSURE OR RISK OF HARM OR SUICIDE BY TRYING TO FORCE YOUR BOX-TICKING MEETING ON ME BEFORE YOU TRY TO RELEASE YOUR WHITEWASH REGARDLESS OF MY FEELINGS OR OBJECTIONS.
YOU FUCKING ANIMALS, FUCK OFF. You are a danger to children and the vulnerable, a whole report damned you recently, you have damaged children, you have acted corruptly in my case, you have intimidated and harmed me for years, and you make it quite clear that your positions are to abuse power and protect powerful wrongdoers. Is this attack on me because the child abuse review has gone whimpering off with it's tail between it's legs and paedophile protectors such as Philip Bailhache remain?! Yeah, you are great at safeguarding, you saw in the press that Philip Bailhache wasn't able to deny that his actions as a judge had protected abusers and allowed abuse to persist. Philip Bailhache, the lay chair of the church in Jersey, who has attacked me in the press and media and stirred up hatred against me while you stood by! Your report doesn't include that does it???


I understand that the home office and other recipients won't like me swearing, but I have for years made it very clear that to put a vulnerable adult in a situation of knowing very well she is powerless against people who have very deliberately smeared and discredited her to cover up, and knowing for years that these people intend to attack her publicly and drive her to suicide is not acceptable, and no-one has stepped in or acted to protect me from these abusers who are above the law because they hold positions in safeguarding and in the police.

The onslaught of the past three years has been too much for me and I am already finished by the recent press and media attack on me. In my death these pleas to be protected from this incredible open and blatant corruption will not go away. I want this email and the linked letters read out at my inquest, I want the inquest to be about the contructive murder of me by the Church of England and Police and Safeguarding Failure Boards, I want my death to be an end to the Church of England being above the law and the police being able to protect themselves by controlling safeguarding boards.

The police, church of england and other agencies including this disgraced safeguarding board, have been allowed to openly and unchallenged, destroy me. It is time that that stopped.

HG

This email is cc the Home Office, social services, the IPCC and HMIC, Jersey Police complaints authority (who are ineffectual), 10 Downing Street, all safeguarding chairs in the country, Jane Dodds and Graham Tilby who represent safeguarding in the Church of England and are thus also liable for this ongoing attack on my life by Gull and Johnstone. It will continue to be circulated until I am protected. I won't stop fighting this terrible miscarriage of justice until I die or I am protected, the first of which is increasingly likely if the combined onslaught is not stopped.

Johnstone is never to make contact with me again, she is to shred her report, and as well as taking her and her band of corrupt abusers to court, I will hold the Church of England liable for the harm, the 'offers' to carry out reports by the conflicted 'safeguarding' board and Gladwin and Steel, were well set up and co-ordinated to look genuine but they are three reports set up and implemented by conflicted people. Reports that only contain the defendants' views with no interest in including the plaintiff are of no worth at all, and afterthought meetings such as the one offered by Johnstone and Dodds this week as part of the 'to-the-death' closedown of a horrific three years onslaught, are a sick abusive joke.  Does Johnstone want to copy Dodds in a weedy little mutter about the 'Church not meaning me any harm'? What a co-incidence that all this happens at once if there is no connection and it is all independent?

HG