In loving memory

October is all anniversaries
including your death and mine,
two weeks apart.
a year apart

six years
and five years now
2009
and 2010

and I am sitting here
and suddenly I remember you clearly
a few days early 
I cry

I remember that you thought it was a good lullaby for us as children
but you were autistic
so it isn't that surprising
and it is a good lullaby anyway:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RbBOOmkMLmI

I sang it to you as you lay dying
and we were alone
the others had gone to get drunk
so I sang you the same lullaby, 
while my world crashed round me 
and you slept peacefully