Friday 18 July 2014

A message for the Bishop of Winchester

A message for the Bishop of Winchester.

Please note, you are still harassing me and thus in danger of penalties.

The sham safeguarding report in Jersey was initiated by you and your diocese, another whitewash that would omit Jane Fisher's wrongdoing.
You thus need to stop this harassment by stopping this whitewash sham report, which declared quite some time ago, without my side of things, that it cleared the police of misconduct, and went on to say in February it was nearly complete, and claimed to be trying to contact me, and only recently, after finishing the whitewash sham report, because the sham safeguarding board heard of the possibility of me giving evidence to the Jersey Care Inquiry.

So, unless you want to face penalties, withdraw the sham whitewash that you launched against me along with the Korris and Steel whitewashes.

And remember, I am still waiting for a genuine investigation into what happened to me, one that includes my views and does not lie about Jane Fisher or the police or what really happened.
And also remember, the genuine investigation is going to be tougher now that you have allowed evidence to be tampered with by Fisher, Steel, Gull and others who you have allowed to hijack the investigation,

A quick reminder to the Bishop

Just to remind you that you have left a deceitful and abusive safeguarding officer who destroyed a vulnerable person, unreprimanded, unsupervised, un-investigated, to damage other vulnerable people and children.
I know that is the culture of the church of england, cover-ups, lies and protecting the church and wrongdoers at the expense of the abused, but it has got to change.

Wednesday 16 July 2014

Jersey's whitewash mafia

last words until the next attack by Jersey's whitewash mafia.

The police officer who illegally helped the conflicted Dame Steel, friend and colleague of Philip Bailhache, to access my inaccurate Jersey police records, and whom the Bishop grandly claimed to 'Appoint' to assist Steel despite protests that both Steel and Jersey police were conflicted and that I did not consent, is the same police officer who is on Jersey's sham safeguarding panel, and, especially as he wasn't in Jersey to witness the inaccuracies, the stich-ups and has presumably again illegally accessed my inaccurate records, the whole thing is a farce, designed to clear wrongdoers, especially in the police where repeated blatant misconducts and conflictions occured.

So, who is going to get this mafia to stop harassing me? Especially as they would not have even contacted me if the care inquiry had not been in town!

anyone reading this, please report, publish, do anything to get the sham safeguarding board to stop blatantly destroying me

A reminder to Jersey's whitewash mafia as they continue to waste my life to suit themselves

Dear Mrs Johnston,

This is a formal cease and desist warning letter against your harassment of me through the Jersey authorities.
As soon as I am defamed by your publishing of any report done for the Jersey Authorities who have destroyed me, you will be served with a summons to appear in court.

I state that I have not at any point authorized or agreed to an inquiry into how I was treated in Jersey by you or your 'safeguarding board' and the inquiry was initiated by conflicted government members in Jersey and is thus invalidated.

I did not and have not authorized you or your board to access any records on my case, especially not police, social services, charity or medical records, and if you have done so, you have done so illegally.

You did not inform me of your investigation at the start, I was informed in a roundabout way by Jersey's only true and truthful media, the Jersey bloggers, and you still didn't contact me. A year has gone by, and in February this year it was stated in the States of Jersey as a result of Mike Higgins badgering you, that your report was nearly complete and you were attempting to make contact with me.

This was ludicrous as you were doing nothing of the sort, it was widely known that Bob Hill was representing me, and you made no attempt to contact him, I emailed Jersey Safeguarding twice and got no response, no attempt was made to contact me.

Suddenly, on Friday lunchtime on Friday 27th June, right at the end of the working week, I received an email, to this address, and where did you get this address from? You emailed me, starting your email with 'Ms' ******
 firstly there is no such person, and secondly I have NEVER in any capacity referred to myself as Ms, so why should anyone else? Start by insulting me when contacting me about a whitewash report that is already completed.

You have completed a report, without any permission from me to proceed with a report, without any permission from me to access any records, you have completed a report on material illegally provided by people who have done wrong and covered up, you have completed a report without my consent or knowledge and without permission, that constitutes a breach of my human rights, and as you are based in the UK, I am able to raise this matter, as part of the bigger picture, with the European Court of Human Rights, as well as bringing a case against you in the UK.

You have basically acted purely on the behalf of authorities in Jersey who have behaved terribly and have been proven to keep inaccurate records on my case, you have caused me distress, dispair and anguish, you are thus not acting in a safeguarding capacity, and never have been, you are purely acting on behalf of a government who have not learned anything from their cover up of the Children's home abuse and have created your safeguarding board merely as a showcase, and while you have produced a report that omits me, the same as the DIocese of Winchester's reports omit me, you are safeguarding no-one except the wrongdoers in Jersey's authorities.

Who comissioned this report you are doing against me? And for what purpose? I gather the Chief Minister did, for the Diocese of Winchester who have destroyed me, the chief minister has allowed, without any attempt at restraint, one of his ministers, Philip Bailhache, to run a public smear campaign against me and abuse his office to do so, the chief minister has responded to this dreadful unethical and completely unprofessional behaviour by promoting Philip Bailhache to the position of external affairs minister, and turned his back against calls that Philip Bailhahce breached the data protection act over my case.

So, this report is for whom and for what purpose? For a Chief Minister who has already condoned public defamation of me by one of his ministers and promoted that said minister without making him accountable or facing disciplinary action. 
Please see the following links regarding the government minister in question, please copy and paste if the link doesn't come up:



This is the same government Minister who did not and does not want the independent care inquiry by Frances Oldham and her team and has repeatedly undermined and insulted abuse victims in Jersey. His liberation day speech in 2008 was described to me by one survivor as 'a knife through her heart' as he described how the 'biggest damage' was that to Jersey's reputation.
Thus I and other survivors see any mishandled reports such as yours that is finished without my views, as a whitewash done to protect Jersey's reputation, being such a powerful financial centre, it appears that this means reputation comes first, although the dirt from Jersey is becoming less and less containable and increasingly the word about what is really going on in Jersey, is spreading to the wider world.
I see your finished report that omits me and has illegally accessed my records as part of the whitewashes that are starting to be seen through. I do not see you contacting me at the last minute, on completion of this illegal report as anything other than harmful and a pretence of including me. Safeguarding should never be a process or organization that causes the distress, helplessness and fear that you have and are causing me by the production of your report, and thus, as chair of this report, I am holding you personally responsible and have every intention of taking you to court in the UK as well as including you in the ECHR case.


I will counter any defamatory reports by you that have been created without my permission and input by informing local and national press of my views and of the harm being done to me, and ensuring that any and every system of action against you is instigated and upheld.

Eventually Jersey will not hide behind sham investigations and cover ups, and eventually a few powerful people who are currently beyond the reach of the law because of their status, will be called to account, I will play a part in that, in life or death, and I will bring a case against you in the meantime if your actions in doing a report against me to cover for wrongdoers, does not stop.

No inquiry carried out within Jersey is independent, the example of Senator Gorst supposedly launching this inquiry while condoning sentaor Bailhache's behaviour and promoting him is an example, and the wonderful illusion of you being outside of Jersey and thus independent fails at the point where you have ignored the conflicted ministerial situation and also proceeded with this report without my consent or knowledge, without my consent for access to any records and have completed the report without my views and have contacted me in an impolite manner at the end, as a token. The Jersey Way lives, thrives and blossoms with your illusion of independence. You being outside of Jersey does not seem to have made your inquiry independent of 'The Jersey Way' - covver ups first and foremost, at the expense of victims, at all.

I am formally warning you to cease and desist from your harmful actions in bringing a biased and defamatory report against me on behalf of Jersey's very unprofessional government and I fully intend to fight your harmful actions against me that you are carrying out on their behalf.

As you are in the UK, I am able to file against you as soon as I wish, and as necessary I will return to Jersey to file there as well. Your report is done on behalf of a man, Senator Gorst,  who allowed his colleague to send this letter, please copy and paste if the link didn't come up:


 And then Senator Gorst promoted him to external affairs minister without any disciplinary action, and is thus your report is completely invalid and irrelevant to my case, your report being instigated by a man who actually condones the harm to me his external affairs minister has inflicted and your report having illegally accessed my records and breached the data protection act, is simply a whitewash to cover what has happened to me and make Jersey look squeaky clean for it's finance industry reuptation.
Senator Gorst, after condoning or excusing Senator Bailhache's behaviour, did not contact me to discuss a report into my treatment, he launched it without my consent or knowledge and also failed to let my representative, Bob Hill know, and you have failed to communicate about my case with Bob Hill, despite obviously knowing, having been comissioned by Senator Gorst, who knew, that Bob Hill was representing me, instead, you failed until the last minute to make contact with or about me at all.
I have no doubt that you knew I would react with anger and pain and rebuff you, and you could use that against me.

And, being 'Safeguarding' you appear to have completely failed to take into account that I am too traumatized by what happened to me in Jersey to even think about it, let alone talk about it, and have repeatedly commented on my blogs about similar situations where the Diocese of Winchester have forced this Jersey matter onto me while my memory is blanked by trauma and I cannot even discuss the matter with the psychologist, because the trauma shuts my memory down, and the psychologist has said that blanked memories are blanked by my brain deliberately to prevent me from breaking down. Now what the whole dire Jersey and Winchester mess has done, is force the past, which remains far too traumatic for me to face, back into my life, and I have suffered 16 months of unremitting hell as a result, with no justice, no redress, just a load of severely damaging situations that omit my voice and story and have dragged me into memories that I remain unable to cope with and attempt to access the blanked memories which may well lead to me being incapacitated or dead.

You are playing a full part in dragging me into the trauma that is beyond my reach, you are putting me under needless and horrendous stress, for the sake of a conflicted whitewash that is of no benefit to me, to anyone else, or to Jersey, it will not change the Jersey Way and it will not change the reality of what I experienced, it will not bring justice, it will not mean that the click Jersey words 'lessons have been learned' will ring true, because that will never happen.
Your report and is a meaningless whitewash that is the opposite of safeguarding in that it is playing a part in destroying me to cover up for wrongdoers and conflicted members of the States, and now that you have this letter, no matter what you produce, this letter is now published online on my blogs and circulated to the police, the Jersey bloggers and other interested parties and will remain live forever, even outliving me if these attacks on my life through reports and smears do not stop.
And now that you aware of what is being done to harm me, as 'Independent Safeguarding Chair' you are obliged to act to protect me.
So how are you going to go about doing that?

You do not have my permission to produce any harmful or defamatory material that omits my side, and as the report is supposedly about my treatment but is, as far as I am concerned a sham, you do not have my permission to proceed, you do not and have not had my permission to access any police or social services or charity or other records or discuss me with anyone, you do not have my permission to publish anything that you have so far collated or produced, because it omits my side of things, and contacting me at the last minute regarding a report that you have produced without consent is unacceptable and breaches my human rights and I see it only as a further act of harassment and harm to my health, which is unacceptable for a 'Safeguarding board'. I did not ask for a report, and, because it is dangerous to trigger my memories of Jersey, and so far not a single person in 16 months has taken that into account, how am I supposed to tell you what is behind the blank trauma that according to psychological advice I must not recall??? Did Senator Gorst consider that when he launched this report without my consent? And what do you in Safeguarding want to do, with your token contact of me regarding the report? Force me into a dangerous state for the sake of a sham report? Or just contact me so that it shows on record that you did and I violently rejected you and am thus the mad bad person that the police and government claim I am, I know Jersey is 50 years behind the times, but, as safeguarding, and you from the UK, I think you should understand that I am suffering severe PTSD.

PTSD caused by being regressed to childhood by a churchwarden with no psychological training, when my first childhood was horrific, and being left regressed and rejected in the community because I reported the abuse, and being severely brutalized and locked up the same day the police EMAILED ME the results of the police complaint against the churchwarden, then left traumatized by the illegal and uncalled for police brutality and detention - the Jersey way punishment for reporting an old boy - and left to go on suffering one blow after another until I was left homeless and destitute on the streets of the UK in MY PYJAMAS, which the home affairdsminister, who is also a church of england reader with a long association with my abuser, denies.

Your report and all other reports so far omit me, and this matter having been launched on me while I was homeless, ill and traumatized, has been horrific, because I was and am, in no fit state to relive the horrors of Jersey or to have survived the smear campaign, led by Senator Bailhache and other conflicted church-states-judiciary members, and it appears not to be in your remit to investigate this smear campaign even though it is gross harm to a vulnerable adult by members of Jersey's States, judiciary and church, most in all three categories, including Senator Bailhache, who was a church officer who sat on the synod with my abuser, and Ian LeMarquand who is not just overseer of the police in his role of Home Affairs Minister, but who also is a reader in the church my abuser was sacked from previous to abusing me, and a long time associate of my abuser.
If anyone reading this didn't believe that Jersey has problems with conflict of interests, read the paragraph above again.

so, unless Sentor Gorst is going to allow you to extend your investigation to cover this complaint also, then your report is invalid, you are the safeguarding authority, you are now obliged by me to investigate the smear campaign against me, led by Senator Bailhache and other prominent members of Jersey society and the lies they produced in the press, and if you are not willing so to do, on my comission, and I, as a vulnerable adult, have as much right as Senator Gorst, to comission an investigation, then you are making a clear statement that your other investigations without my consent are invalid

Please ensure that you read the relevant information on my case on the following blogs, you may have to search or ask for the relevant posts, the blogs are the true story that Jersey's other media are not keen to reveal:







Please remember, you have been formally asked to stop harming me, and this email is valid as from today, any harm inflicted after this letter will be seen as deliberate and malicious and not valid as safeguarding as you will be aware of the harm you are inflic

As Jersey's sham safeguarding board relaunch their attacks on me

Dear recipients, 
Judging by Jersey's sham safeguarding attack, they appear to be stepping up harassment of me because I am running a petition, which is being signed both sides of the channel, they may have seen that I mention a few things regarding Paul Butler, etc etc in recent articles, and because profile of Jersey's evil has been brought up yet again because of the National CSA inquiry.
Lets talk names: Butler-Sloss-Philip Bailhache-Heather Steel-Paul Butler-Jan Korris, what are the links? Lets keep talking because the more I am attacked, the more you lot are obviously getting worried about your shams and cover-ups and whitewashes and attacks on me. Lets talk National press some more, it is good to talk, the press got a Bishop, now the press can get some more of Jersey as they did in 2008, never to be forgotten.

Jersey's authorities treated me horiffically and I will never recover, but I live to prevent it happening again to another person more voiceless than me.
Keep attacking me, and I will keep speaking up about the police and government who destroyed me.
I will post evidence, I will tell my story, until all the world looks at Jersey and it's hit-man safeguarding sham board and it's politicians who lead lying smear campaigns against vulnerable people and abuse children and cover up, until all the world looks on in horror and disgust at the billion pound tax haven that treats human life with less regard than those in a dictatorship or the third world.

Let me just re-iterate, I have told Jersey's sham safeguarding board to stop harassing me, and if they do not, I will again raise the profile of the issue.
let me offer a reminder of what you have been told. And let me add. You are harassing me.
There is no legitimate safeguarding investigation by Jersey's sham safeguarding board, there is only an attack on me and my integrity and a cover up of what happened to me, a combined affort for the Church and the States of Jersey, which has the unfortunate side effect of destroying me further, which is a safeguarding concern.
This will again be published on my blog. And sent around the increasing audience to Jersey's farces and struggles as Jersey flops like a fish on a beach trying to cover up by villification, tampering with evidence, whitewashes and denials.
Jersey destroyed me six years ago, and in this effort to do the same again, Jersey is going to be struck with almighty force, for all the wronged in Jersey, past and present, for all those who died and commited suicide or were murdered at the hands of a corrupt paedophile protecting government and police force, I speak for them and I will speak until you stop. Your report will not silence, shame or discredit me, because it is already known internationally as a farce, and as another attack on me. And I will then publish my evidence.
Jersey, stop destroying vulnerable people because of greed and power, you disgust an international community.

I, HG, State the following:
  1. I have not agreed to intrusion and intervention by Jersey's Sham 'safeguarding board'.
  2. I forbid continued intrusion and intervention.
  3. One of the reasons I forbid this is because they are conflicted by acting for a government who have publicly smeared me.
  4. The sham safeguarding board have already made their stance clear by stating in February that their report was nearly finished and they were apparently trying to contact me then but did not go through Bob Hill when it was made clear to them that he was acting for me, they made no attempt to contact me in February.
  5. They contacted me directly very recently, presumably as an afterthought so that they could claim in their whitewash report to have contacted me. The report, if nearly finished in February, would be complete by now. Presumably they hoped I would reject them out of hand and they could thus publish the report and say that. Instead, I am charging them to publish both this legal letter/warning and the previous legal letter to Glenys Johnstone in their report if they insist on harming me by publishing their whitewash.
  6. The board need to be aware that their actions in accessing any records of mine are illegal, that publishing anything dishonest or untruthful that omits my views is illegal and I will proceed action in all ways possible while widely publicising the board's actions against me, and my reach now through blogs and other media is extensive.
  7. The sham safeguarding board are not carrying out an investigation, and have not, they have been carrying out a biased cover up for a government who smeared my name, as shown in the email links in the formal letter to Glenys Johnstone.
  8. I intend to persue this matter until Jersey's sham safeguarding board desist from harassing me. The report is a sham for a government who publicly smeared me, it is conflicted, it is a whitewash and it will be sent round the world for the whitewash it is, and Jersey's government and sham safeguarding board are already known to a wide audience as corrupt and ineffective. Jersey's sham safeguarding board is getting a lot of negative publicity for being ineffective and protecting no-one, so harassing a vulnerable adult for a whitewash report is going to come as no surprise to the world, nor is the continued action and publicity I produce.
  9. The days of re-abusing victims is coming to an end, the recent CSA inquiry has highlighted in the media just the kind of thing Jersey's corrupt government and sham safeguarding board are inflicting on me, a re-abuse, a harassment to drive me to death and ruin and silence me, this is what thousands of children and young people in the UK have suffered and this is what Jersey and the diocese have made me suffer, but the time of being silenced is well and truly over, we are speaking and being heard, and you are nothing more than a sham government agency who are harassing me, and I am asking you again and formally, to desist.
  10. The only people to investigate this matter are to be independent of Jersey, and puppets like Glenys Johnstone, who cleared the police of misconduct months ago without my views, are not independent.
  11. This will be published on my blog, on twitter and on other media.
  12. Mike Higgins, who often raises my case in the States without my consent, has my consent to raise this in the States.
sincerely,

letter to the Home Secretary

16/07/2014

Dear Theresa May,

I am writing regarding the Historic Child Abuse investigations.

I am pleased that an overarching inquiry was called, especially as some children were traffiked from one care home to another and abused repeatedly in different care homes in different areas.

There is a feeling among survivors that perhaps the Government do not have a full understanding of the impact of abuse on victims/survivors, nor the damage that re-living the abuse does to a person.
And many are having to, and will have to re-live their abuse as a result of this inquiry.

I would like to suggest that the government consults with and includes both abuse survivors and also charities who support survicors, and includes both on the panel investigating abuse. Otherwise the Government and survivors may continue to have communication issues and disagree. Which will make the inquiry hard for all.
However, the NSPCC, due to their links to individuals such as Jimmy Savile are not ideal for input to the Inquiry, as their role also needs to be investigated.
I believe that there is currently a member of the NSPCC, Peter Wanless, who is conflicted by being given the role of investigating an organization that he was once a member of, and that is not a great start.

From experience, NAPAC would be a good charity to have a say, as they focus on Childhood abuse and it's effects and, in my experience, have provided me with invaluable support. I also know local charities with such excellent care for survivors, who should maybe have a say.

I would also like to comment that the Church of England should not have a say in who chairs or leads the inquiry, as, they also need to be investigated, and as a survivor of severe harm and unresolved cover-ups at the hands of the Church of England, I would feel that their involvement would obstruct inquiries, as would involvement by the Catholic Church, who are showing less interest in the National Inquiry than the Church of England.

I know it is hard for people who have not suffered abuse to understand the feelings and needs of survivors, but I would ask that you and the government seriously consider what survivors are asking for, and thus help to heal damaged lives and bring some justice.

Finally, I would like to add that quite a number of people believe that Jersey should be included in the National Inquiry. This is because children were traffiked to and from Jersey and UK care homes and abused at both, by a group of linked individuals, and also because Jersey's authorities have obstructed inquiries and interfered with evidence and intimidated survivors for decades.

Thank you for your consideration of this matter.

sincerely,

HG



police

The church obviously have enough power to get the police to beat and imprison abuse victims, I no longer believe that the police are law enforcement after they have failed for years to protect me, and instead beaten and detained me and left me shattered for life and been dishonest and kept inaccurate records.

http://google-law.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/police-whistle-blower-thrown-in-cell.html?spref=tw

For the Church of England clergy who have wrecked my life, lets start you on the basics of decent humanity and move on to Christianity later

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Daily link Jersey CSA/Butler-Sloss

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Tuesday 15 July 2014

Part 2 CSA/church inquiry

Dear Bishop Butler, 

Amendments to my previous statement:

I mentioned Archbishop Carey at one point, I meant Archbishop Welby.
Which reminds me, I have omitted the assisted dying bill from my previous letter.
To be honest, the church have no right to be shouting about the vulnerable and assisted dying, they have wrecked my life beyond repair, repeatedly nearly driven me to suicide,
that is a case of the church assisting a vulnerable person to die, and I have hung on with my life.

For those of you who don't already know, I am disabled and spent 3 years as a rough sleeper, with the church still hounding and violating me, and due to the inaccurate record they got me, I was branded and unable to seek help.

A note on Jersey, Philip Bailhache, previously mentioned, is a trained lawyer and Jurat as well as church officer, Ian LeMarquand, his colleague who is Home affairs minister, oversees the police who treated me terribly, he is a church of England reader and also a long time friend of my abuser and was present when my abuser was sacked from their church for misconduct before moving on to the church where he met, groomed, regressed and abused me, claiming he was healing me.

Now an example of Jane Fisher destroying me goes right back to the start, when she knew my abuser was a serial abuser but was blaming me to try and shut me up, is Jane Fisher, Church of England Safeguarding officer, telling me that my abuser was a Christian who got things wrong, validating a serial abuser against his victim, you wonder why I went mad and gave the church of England an opportunity to villify me and invalidate and destroy me?! 

It was this continued behaviour by Jane Fisher and the Scott-Joynts, combined with the police's behaviour, for example, the day they EMAILED me the results of their investigation into my abuser, they violently brutalized me and flung me in a cell, claiming to be justified by me being suicidal, is that they way you treat someone who is suicidal? Or is that how you treat the person who spoke out about your overseer's friend abusing them? You wonder why I went mad, there is a lot more of that from the police and Jane Fisher, all omitted from your reports, because you excluded me from your reports, to protect people like Fisher, Scott-Joynt, etc, 'The press would love a safeguarding officer'.

Now can you imagine what would, what has, what can happen to anyone who did not find a voice through emails and keep speaking and speaking and speaking, as the church continued to have her attacked by the police, and who is still speaking now as the injutice continues after 6 years that has shattered her life irreperably?
You yourself are conflicted, just as Jimmy Saville prevented his own victims from accessing the NSPCC, 
where do child abuse victims or victims of Jane Fisher, I can name a few others, go for help? Where do people more voiceless and vulnerable go for help, when I, who has continued to speak remains silenced, unheard and without redress or a fair inquiry? You oversee Jane Fisher and you have done nothing, despite being copied in on hundreds of emails of protests to the Diocese that have not been responded to with a fair inquiry into my complaints!

You, as safeguarding chair are responsible for the following:
  • Jane Fisher destroying me, you not investigating, reprimanding or restraining her, aware of your relationship with her from your time in Southampton where she lives, and you lived, where you were Bishop, within the Diocese of Winchester
  • The inquiries so far, all conflicted, unbalanced, omitting me, and all done within the church, with the public misled by the Diocese calling them independently led inquiries, which none were, Steel-Bailhache inquiry, Korris-Fisher-Sloss inquiry, Gladwin inquiry. For the public's benefit, John Gladwin is a retired Bishop who worked with Butler-Sloss in the faulty chichester inquiry, Butler-Sloss also influenced the Korris report and is likely to have been involved with both Gladwin and Steel.
  • The general ignorance of one and all in the Church of England to my condition, and disabilities such as autism, trauma and mental illness and learning difficulties.
  • Many many misconducts not noted in any report so far as I am omitted.
  • The failure of Lady Butler Sloss and others to act on my concerns in 2011, and others at other dates, even to pass them on to the authorities.
  • You are responsible for providing a conclusion for the inquiries above which are no more than a cover-up campaign that has wasted a quarter of a million pounds without including my views, my story and half of what has happened is completely omitted, basically I am villified, my story is not told and the church have used the campaign to glorify themselves and claim good safeguarding, how utterly appalling, to spend that money on a whitewash while leaving me on the streets as a result of your church harming me, and in terror of further press defamation, you have profoundly damaged my life and health.
  • Providing a proper inquiry, this is now a responsibility which I charge you with, and you are to include me, include my terms of reference and you are not to appoint anyone conflicted.
  • Withdrawal and scrapping of the whitewash Gladwin, Steel and Glenys Jonhnstone inquiries, you and Glenys Johnstone who is having me further defamed by a whitewash into Jersey safeguarding is a colleague of yours and undoubtedly the arrangements were made between the two of you and probably Jane Fisher, all of you 'safeguarding colleagues and all of you conflicted and with my interests and welfare the last thing on your mind.
  • Consider, if this damage can be done to someone who can write as I am doing, what happens to the voiceless and silenced in the church? The church needs to change. Before they continue to shoot their mouths off about CSA inquiries or anything to do with the vulnerable and children.
  • You are responsible for the inexperienced Bishop of Winchester's mess and resolving it, and you are responsible for the harm to me.

These are partial terms of reference for the inquiry that you are being charged by me to bring, these are initial terms of reference:

  • Why was there no investigation into the Montagues, also colleagues of yours in the Winchester Diocese, I met you when I was with them, this was at Southampton when F. Montague was told to take me to Southampton alone after I had reported his abuse of me to J Montague, and further abuse nearly occured. This whole matter is explained away in the Korris report as me abusing their good nature or some such defamation, J Montague was my counsellor as well as being a Vicar, and took me home to her husband despite knowing that his estranged step daughter has accused him of abuse and she made no bones about his violence towards her. This was not me abusing anyone's good nature, it was me being vulnerable and a counsellor crossing her boundaries and taking me home to an abuser she was married to and knew it, his temper was no secret within the Rectory, I went from my cult upbringing to vulnerable in the church and abused. This is to be investigated.
  • The omissions and inaccuracies of the Korris report.
  • The comission and continuation of the conflicted Steel report.
  • The Bishop's repeated misconducts, untruths in the press including claiming to have personally apologized to me, and alloing of untruths by the Jersey Deanery and press. A small example includes the lies about support for me and the appallingly arrogant labelling me as 'lost last and least', that label does not fit me, it fits a deceitful and arrogant diocese. Who are you, in this dreadful deceit and contempt for life under the guise of safeguarding, to label me as such?!
  • Investigation into Jane Fisher's unprofessional behaviour, jeering, telling me my abuser was a christian, lying about Bob key's position, violating my friendships and professional relationships, acting illegally in doing so, lying to police and court...this is an exhaustive list.
  • Why Jane Fisher, having done this damage, was able to influence the Korris report to exclude herself and her behaviour and influence a terrible damaging report that rather than being a safeguarding report, is a victim destroying report.
  • Why Bishop Scott-Joynt and Jane Fisher did not deal with my complaint, left me suffering and maligned in a small community where my abuser and his church and connections had influence so I was outcast, and instead of dealing with my complaint, the Bishop and Jane Fisher got me an inaccurate and one-sided police record.
  • Why the Korris report omits this and gives an inaccurate account that soft-soaps the police and their behaviour.
  • The full situation of Jane Fisher and Michael Scott-Joynt's illegal actions in Winchester and the terrible and irreparable police brutality I suffered as a result of standing up to this and continuing to beg for them to bring justice as I was broken, branded and their liason with all churches and homeless services in Winchester, illegally with council and police, and with my friends, left me outcast, shunned and crying with shame, while the police's one-sided actions and refusal of my complaint in favour of Fisher and Scott-Joynt's account that I was mad and bad, has left me seriously injured psychologically. 
  • The lies told to the court in Sussex by Jane Fisher and Michael Scott-Joynt, again with me voiceless, brutalized and refused a counter complaint as Fisher and Scott-Joynt again tried to have me put away as insane. This point and the previous one are omitted from Korris as is me being left having an asthma attack in a cell with no inhalers and my daily inhaler refused me. Lies by the two wrongdoers include them claiming to have tried to help house me, despite their intervention behind my back being illegal, harassment and driving me from housing services and homeless services.
  • Why, even when I went on the run, I was not freed from interference and Jane Fisher was able to influence social services when they were begged by me to protect me from her continued interference. The same with the police, who were and have been, given complaints from 2010 onwards against Jane Fisher and the Diocese, some of which you have been copied in on. 
  • Why the police have refused to act and protect me from harassment and defamation by the church when they have been so quick to brutalizen and imprison me for responding to it
  • Why the distress the press and media attention and resulting lies and rumours and slurs, some from complete strangers, has not been addressed as a safeguarding issue harming a vulnerable adult and why it has not been stopped as a result, you have been copied in on hundreds of distressed emails on this matter.
  • Why I am still living in fear of the next press/defamatory report that is inaccurate and harms me.
  • who is connected to who in the Jersey Deanery and Winchester diocese, as no report shows the tight connections and conflicts of interest!
  • Why a very insincere apology from the Dean was never passed on to me by the Church or diocese but was put on the church and diocese websites to glorify the church, while Bishop Dakin threatened me, then finally answered my request for no further illegal intervention, ignored my second formal complaint against Jane Fisher and allowed her to illegally refer me to the NSPCC, an insult in that they are an abusive charity and Jane Fisher had destroyed me and had a formal complaint against her.
  • How a church who call themselves christians can treat a destroyed person like vermin.
Please prepare to choose a non-conflicted panel who will include me in their report. Ie, no church of England members.

The Church and the CSA inquiry

Dear Bishop Butler,

I object to you and your church choosing one cover-up merchant like Butler-Sloss after another to hijack the national CSA inquiry and protect the Church of England.

The Church of England is an abusive organization, which has blatantly destroyed and villified me, excluded me from inquiries and handed them over to my abuser's supporters, and failed at any point to gather my full story and balance the inquiry, you have also continued to employ the safeguarding officer who destroyed me for the sake of cover up, who also, with Butler-Sloss and Korris, mainly covered up her wrongdoing that led to me being left homeless and destitute.

Until this matter is resolved, the Church of England have no credibility, and furthermore, being such a shambolic organization for safeguarding, being an organization which has covered it's back through people like Butler-Sloss, being an abuse-ridden and damaging organization,and destroying me through safeguarding, I object strongly to your involvement in the choosing of a new chair for the CSA inquiry.

I have yet to hear you speak regarding the Butler-Sloss whitewashes or the way the Diocese of Winchester and Jersey Deanery have ripped my life to shreds and villified me.
Currently one particular ongoing harm to me caused by you and your church is a whitewash safeguarding 'investigation' within Jersey into the way the authorities treated me, this report, which has yet to be released, was already written and the clearing of wrongdoers announced, in February, and within the last few weeks I have been contacted, so that the sham safeguarding board can put on record that they contacted me, this report was instrumented by you and your church and you are liable for the further harm that it will cause me, on top of the massive wrecking of my life in the press that your whitewash Korris and Steel reports, influenced by Lady Butler-Sloss, a colleague of Steel and her friend Bailhache who led a smear campaign against me to protect the Dean, has caused.

Those who don't know it, Steel is conflicted judge who was nominated by Philip Bailhache, Jersey Senator-Jurat-Church officer associate of my church officer abuser abuser and friend of the Dean, to ensure that the Dean was cleared and I was utterly publicly crucified.
Butler-Sloss a colleague of Steel and Bailhache played a part in the Korris report and was acknowledged as such, the horrifying, inaccurate and unprofessional Korris report ripped my world apart when the Diocese of Winchester and Jane Fisher had it published, with no thought whatsoever for safeguarding and my welfare, 
the Korris report was proudly displayed on the Diocesan website despite omitting my views and despite my protests and despite the Diocese refusing to add my amendments sent to Korris and from Korris to the Diocese -evidenced.

The Korris report was only removed from the Diocesan website very recently due to a legal bid. This too is evidenced, the Korris report remains published internationally on a number of websites and has shamed and defamed me in a way from which I will never recover.
The diocese lied to a court of law in claiming attempts had been made to include me in the Korris report, obviously none of my amendments were added and there is no record or evidence that any effort was made to contact me. 

My side remains unheard and I object to Bishop Butler and Archbishop Welby making any pronouncements about the CSA in the meantime.
Archbishop Welby claims that more abuse will be uncovered in the church, of course it will, the church have silenced victims for years, refused and delayed complaints and treated victims like dirt, I am not the only one to have been sent mad by abuse and proclaimed insane by the church, not by a long way, I can NAME others who have! 

Now, why, when the Church have not resolved this matter, taken my complaint and done a proper inquiry on my behalf, is the Church, who's representative Lady Butler-Sloss, still playing a part in influencing the national CSA inquiry. Survivors want an inquiry, not another whitewash and cover up like Butler-Sloss-Steel-Korris-Bailhache.

Those who are not aware of who Philip Bailhache is, he is a Jersey senator, member of the judiciary and also church officer, who used his role of senator to support the dean and church in which he was an officer, by running a smear campaign against me, writing a letter full of untruths and inaccuracies to the Archbishop, who accepted his letter, and headed a press-based smear campaign against me, for the Dean and for the church officer who abused me, I suffered massive harm as a result and was voiceless against this defamation of me that resulted from the Korris report being published and the Bishop of Winchester attacking the Dean and Deanery of Jersey, an inexperienced Bishop given a diocese and role he wasn't fit for, attacked his own deanery publicly over my case, without even meeting me or getting my side of things, and the result was the smear campaign and Philip Bailhache appointing his friend and colleague Dame Steel to damn me and clear the Dean and other wrongdoers.
The Bishop then threatened me for begging him and his church to leave me alone and not do a repeat of ther prolonged act of harassment and breaches of my human rights in 2010/2011 which the Diocese of Winchester, with the safeguarding officer who commited these breaches of my human rights leading them, did not include in ANY investigation. While I am left scarred by police beatings and detentions inflicted on me by the police on behalf of Jane Fisher and Michael Scott-Joynt because I protested their interference in my life and breach of human rights, as well as persisting in asking them to dealwith my complaint. Which, to this day, they haven't. The Korris report does not deal with my complaint and conveniently omits Jane Fisher's illegal actions.

And, last year AFTER my second formal complaint against safeguarding officer Jane Fisher, she was still working in her role, unsupervised, unreprimanded and was allowed to illegally refer me for 'help' to the NSPCC, as if a children's charity could help an adult who is scarred for life by the very woman who illegally referred her! 

The church need to get ther house in order before they have the right to get involved in things such as the National Child Abuse inquiry. 
The Church of England looks silly and yet they keep shouting in the press.

  •  Women Bishops were elected because if the Church had refused, the Government would have forced it on them which would have made them look worse. 
  • Welby is pre-empting all the suppressed and silenced Church victims coming forward by making headlines, look bad doing that or look worse when they do?
  • The Church had Butler-Sloss nicely in place, oh dear, her Chichester cover-up was blown as a result, what about her Winchester cover-up? Who will the church now force into position to lead the inquiry and protect them?
sincerely, 

-- 

Another reason for Welby and the CofE making such a fuss in the press is...

They want to ensure the fuss about Butler-Sloss dies down without too many people linking it, and her to the church and years of cover-ups at the expense of victims, including me.

Updates

I used to hate it when Bob Hill would send me emails marked 'update' because there was never anything but bad news.

This is good news: The Jersey petition reached it's required minimim 100 signatures.

The other comforting news is that last night I got a response to my requests for help. Someone has offered to scribe for me and are seeing what their organization can do to help.

Also I had a medical this morning and am on meds, which are already helping, I had a good strong swim this afternoon and have been able to eat a meal.

Life After the Diocese is updated http://lifeafterthediocese.blogspot.co.uk/

I was amused to see that the Dean of Jersey is gushing about Women Bishops, when did the tune change?

Jersey petition

One more signature needed for the minimum 100 to send to the Home Secretary:

http://www.change.org/en-GB/petitions/theresa-may-home-secretary-include-jersey-channel-islands-in-the-historic-csa-inquiry

Monday 14 July 2014

update 1/ The press would love a Bishop.

10 to go on the Jersey petition, and the Ould troll is pathetically yapping, must be doing something right! :)

Peter Ould hasn't retired from being an interfering asshole then.
Trolls tend to yap when things get serious and things get uncovered. I am not afraid of the Ould Bully, and I curse whatever malicious spirit upholds his attacks on vulnerable people and situations that don't concern him, in Jesus Name, and pray that he leaves his school bully ways behind and become a Christian, in Jesus Name, amen.

Actually, since Peter Ould is such an abuse apologist and attacker of survivors, maybe it is time that inquiry eyes start to look at him, to start with, his attacks on me have been a form of abuse, a re-abusing and harassing of me on behalf of the Jersey Deanery, and now he doesn't want Jersey investigated? I would say he is guilty of misconduct, and so I will remind his employers of this.

The press would love a Bishop:

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/wires/pa/article-2692146/EX-BISHOP-FACES-MORE-SEX-CHARGES.html

On the subject of trolls. The person insulting me on twitter came back, through someone else and apologized, they said they had got me confused with someone else.
How odd.
I couldn't work out how to unblock them though.

Women Bishops

People round the world searching for Church of England due to the headlines are landing on my blog.

So, do I support women Bishops?

No.

Because I don't support Bishops.

When did Jesus teach that fat millionaires in mansions should carry His Name?
And how can fat millionaires possibly understand or keep Jesus teachings?

Don't ever forget, the Church of England were forced to vote for women Bishops, as the Government would have forced women Bishops on them if they had voted against it again.
All the Welby Waffle is simply to try and promoted a dying and shattered CofE.


Volunteer/mediator needed

Dear Readers.
Thank you for supporting the blog.
If there is any among you who could spare a few weeks to help me, I would be pleased to hear from you.

The reasons I need help:


  • I am increasingly tired and in pain.
  • Despite my prolific writing on this blog, the whole inquiry, and the previous harm by the church has been too much for me, and is above my head and has worn me down.
  • I am battling health problems and am not able to fight my case and the health problems.
  • Bob Hill, who was helping me, is in Jersey and that has rendered him ineffective to help with some UK stuff, and he also never got an opportunity to take my full story and so it has been hard for him to help.
  • I need help, someone who can think clearly, make suggestions and help facilitate me to produce letters and reports. I can hardly think clearly when I am tired and in pain.
  • I got cross with Bob for making assumptions and doing things without my permission, I am unlikely to get angry if you can handle my case sensetively and work with me, not behind my back.
  • I am ideally looking for a female help, but I don't discriminate, anyone can volunteer, Bob was a safe man.. I would also prefer the volunteer to be in the UK rather than Jersey, but again, anyone who can help.
This is what I need help with:

  • Paperwork
  • writing or checking reports
  • explaining/clarifying - people do not take into account that I have learning difficulties, and they expect me to know everything, and I don't, Bob was a fiend for this! Me appearing intelligent does not mean I understand things.
  • mentoring, within boundaries, when I am struggling.
  • communication with and for me, I struggle to use a phone due to dysphasia, and this has been to my disadvantage throughout.
The role will not involve:

  • money
  • Travel
  • sympathy - I HATE IT
  • hands-on support or care

This volunteering role is for a few hours per week, for a limited time, until I am safe from harm from the church or until my health either improves or deteriorates.
Whoever takes the role needs to have clear boundaries and only work with me for a couple of hours per week, as I cannot relate to people for longer than that, I cannot work intensely with someone or have someone work intensely with me as I have reactive attachment disorder.
I know some people will suggest the CAB, but in Winchester they acted against me as the Bishop's wife worked for them, in Southampton they lied to me and fobbed me off, and generally they are overseen by a powerful member of the Church of England's cover up squad.

If you feel you could help, my email is iamtherealhg@gmail.com


Jersey 2008

Jersey 2008-2010, I never heard the abuse survivrs of the care system mentioned in church or prayed for

But people do care

 .https://www.change.org/en-GB/petitions/theresa-may-home-secretary-include-jersey-channel-islands-in-the-historic-csa-inquiry


No Myths, women Bishops

The Church have no choice but to allow women Bishops or the Government will force them to, so don't believe any crowd-pleasing nonsense that the Church of England spew out.
Independent Review of a
Safeguarding Complaint for
the Diocese of Winchester
March 2013

This Review was written by Jan Korris.
Acknowledgements
I wish to thank the following for their valuable insight and support with this Review,

Baroness Elizabeth Butler-Sloss
Suzanne Dennis BA Msc BPSCPyschol MBACP, Snr. Accredited Supervisor
Professor Chris Thompson, Chief Medical Officer and Consultant Psychiatrist Priory Group
Elizabeth Hall, National Safeguarding Advisor

and the others who have offered considerable assistance with the task.


The Diocese of Winchester recently claimed that Jan Korris tried to contact me to include me in her report.
Funny then, that when I contacted her about the report last year, she didn't mention that, but told me she would forward my amendments to the Diocese. The Diocese never included my amendments.

This is my recent email regarding the Diocese's recent claim that Jan Korris tried to contact me, there has been no response:

Dear Jan Korris,

As the diocese of Winchester continue to relentlessly injure me and remove my quality of life, I am emailing you to ask,
By what means did you attempt to contact me to include me in the Korris report before it was published?

If it was by phone, did the diocese make you aware that I suffer dysphasia and thus cannot use a phone properly, and also that the diocese's police action against me for continuing to ask for Justice and for Jane Fisher to leave me alone led to me having my phone confiscated and thus the diocese lost the only number they had for me, which incidentally left me at very high risk as a female rough sleeper without a phone.

Also, if you tried to contact me by email, which email address? I have every email sent and received, including junk ones, since 2008 and earlier, and your name and email addresses have never showed up.
I am quite sure that unless the diocese were being extremely incompetent, they would have told you that I cannot use a phone for conversation until I know someone's voice and even then it can be tricky, so if there had been a genuine attempt to contact me, it would have been by email.
Please could you forward your attempted correspondence of your effort to include me in the report before it was published.

Thank you so much.

Just to remind you, the Korris report was defamatory and incorrect and remains published internationally and has injured me and will injure me for the rest of my life, please do not ever launch such an injurious and unprofessional attack on someone you have never met again, you and the diocese do not seem to have any idea what such a horrific misleading public flogging on top of what already happened, can do to someone and I remain broken by it and still being relentlessly injured by the diocese.






DON'T LET THE CHURCH OF ENGLAND INFLUENCE THE APPOINTMENT OF THE CSA INQUIRY CHAIR

The Diocese of Winchester have failed to provide me with a copy of the Steel report, the second report that they did against me,
I would like to see Dame Butler-Sloss's involvement in that outed, she was involved in the dreadful Korris report, and she is also a collague of Philip Bailhache.
So...


DON'T LET THE CHURCH OF ENGLAND COVER THEIR BACKS BY APPOINTING THE NEXT CSA INQUIRY CHAIR.
BUTLER-SLOSS WAS THEIR CHOICE TO KEEP THE YEARS OF ABUSE AND MISCONDUCT COVERED UP, DON'T LET THEM APPOINT STEEL OR ANOTHER OF THEIRS!

Breaking News!

Butler Sloss is to stand down as head of National CSA Inquiry!

Well done everyone! Especially Exaro News and everyone supporting us!

http://www.exaronews.com/articles/5328/baroness-butler-sloss-faces-another-hitch-in-heading-csa-inquiry

Church abuse cases

'More abuse cases in church will be uncovered'
Warns the Archbishop who cares only about his church, and the cases not uncovered should have been uncovered before, by the church.

So, another reason why Lady Butler-Sloss should go.

'The press would love a Bishop'.

Daily links

http://www.portsmouth.co.uk/news/local/report-outlines-church-worker-s-child-abuse-1-6176336

http://www.theguardian.com/society/2014/jul/14/former-solicitor-general-butler-sloss-child-abuse-inquiry?CMP=twt_fd

http://www.exaronews.com/articles/5328/baroness-butler-sloss-faces-another-hitch-in-heading-csa-inquiry

Sunday 13 July 2014

The press would love a Dean - Dakin you idiot!

Butler-Sloss 'The press would love a Bishop'.

The Jersey Deanery cover up is exactly the same thing.

This blog is now resting, as it's author is exhausted and sick.

Jane Fisher

Jane Fisher,
The shame wasn't me 'involving innocent people', the shame was you continueing to destroy me and cover up for the church so that I continued to tell people about the matter and copy people in who I thought might remonstrate with the church for the way they treated me, remonstrate with you, a safeguarding officer who's priority was cover up at my expense, to the point of making me out to be mad, because, as the Korris report depicts, you were afraid of scandal on the back of the Haute de la Garenne case/

Dame Butler-Sloss -The Great Church Abuse Sleuth?

A few Months ago, Lady Butler-Sloss was sent this letter, and failed to respond:

http://whatreallyhappenedinthechurch.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/formal-letter-to-bishop-dakin-2.html#.U8LGb5RdXhE

Since 2011 I have contacted her on numerous occasions regarding the appaling handling of me and my case by the Diocese of Winchester.
I received no response to last year's complaints.

In 2011, the response was a rebuff and the church continued to harm me, this was immediately before the Sussex beating and detention for continuing to ask the Church to deal with my complaint and continuing to beg Jane Fisher to be free of her interventions.

From: STEVENSON, Maggie (StevensonMM@parliament.uk) You moved this message to its current location.
Sent:28 June 2011 13:05:54


Dear ** ********, your email to Lady Butler-Sloss has been forwarded to me as I look after her in the House of Lords and at present she is at home recovering from an operation and unable to do anything until much later this year.

Lady Butler-Sloss has asked me to thank you for writing to her about your circumstances.  Unfortunately she is unable to help you but she hopes your situation can be peacefully resolved and things improve for you.

With all good wishes,

Maggie Stevenson | Secretary to Lady Butler-Sloss |
House of Lords |Tel:   020 7219 3156 |Fax: 020 7219 0785
Mob: 07813 170933 stevensonmm@parliament.uk



And later on, without getting back to me on the matter, Dame Butler Sloss influenced the Korris cover-up.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-europe-jersey-28283289

The Beck and Janner situation - a witness account

Very frequent visitor on firefox UK, would you like to discuss this post at all? leave a comment if so.


Here Goes. I will tell what I remember, splintered as it is.
It gets a bit more coherent and serious further on, it starts with the splintered memories of a young autistic Child in quite unsettled circumstances. 
Futher on, this autistic child was 12 or 13 and remembers more, but I wish there was a journal, a family member or any supporting account to fill in the gaps, but there isn't.

The Church of England, as they do, will probably be insulting and make me out to be mad, but this story, and my full story in the 'Pages' section of the blog, are the reason I ended up on the Church of ENgland's doorstep, severely damaged and vulnerable to their abusive systems and abusers who they protect at the expense of Victims, see the articles about Lady Butler-Sloss and Bishop Ball.

I will omit some names and will include others but without any accusations, I am telling what I remember.
This story is partly to show how far the impact of abuse and cover ups by authorities can reach, as, not a direct victim of the pervert MPs, I was still affected by the war over the abuse and cover-ups that went on.
The story is not statement of fact, it is me recalling what I remember seeing, hearing and living through.

I am not recording anyone innocent or guilty, what I am doing now, is telling you what I lived through, now enabled to do so by the recent publicising of the matter, having had to keep silent for years because people like me were always treated as mad over matters like this.

Leicestershire, 1984-1988, council sink estate, very rough, gangs, violence, illegal motorbikes etc, hallmark Leicester sink estate, one of a number. For my American readers a 'Sink Estate' is a very run down and crime ridden and badly maintained council housing area.

Leicester was the City of the sink estates, and a theory was or is, that it was kept that way so that a supply of vulnerable and voiceless children were available.

I was a young child when I first heard my mum talking about MPs kerb crawling and members of the local council being involved.

I remember one name regarding this matter, and his name came up repeatedly, he was, as far as I know, a local councillor, but I can find very little about him in any internet search, such a person exists, but information is removed/missing/not available.

Another name was mentioned later on in the 1984-1988 period of time, this name is currently in the press a lot with his noise regarding missing files, and his name came up again later in the 1990s part of this story. He has a string of alledged misconducts on his record that he has always escaped action for, and I guess his reason for wanting the missing files is to obliterate any necessary evidence.

My parents were fighting a war regarding this alledged kerb crawling and misconduct by local government figures, and they were fighting a losing war because no-one would listen, no one would act, and no-one believed them, my parents belief system and the structure of my family went against them, their habit of cursing spirits, their ways of keeping us from school, medical help or any authority intervention went against them, as well as the fact that all ears in police, parliment and other authorities were closed.

My family suffered ongoing severe violence during the 1984-1988 period, and I remember a firework being put through the letterbox, I remember numerous violent attacks on us and our house, and my parents said this was because of them reporting the kerb crawling and misconduct of local government members.
I have no solid link between the two matters, so I will call an open verdict, it was a rough estate and my family were a closed cult, would we have been left alone if my parents had not fought the alledged kerb crawling and misconduct? I don't know, but a re-inactment in the 90s of this war, more serious, much clearer to me, and the same allegations and even worse violence, was it co-incidence or not?

Anyway, so, in a family where sex was taboo, we learned words like 'rent-boys' and 'kerb-crawling' at an early age, as my parents fought the police and government.
Now back then, and even in the 90s, people like my parents were silenced at all costs, made to look not credible by police and council actions, and we did suffer terribly with violence against us and council and police allegations and battles.
My parents went to court a lot, not so much in the 80s, but a lot more in the 90s, to the point of neglecting us children somewhat, well there were 15 siblings, how can you raise us and be out at court all the time?

Anyway, so in 1988, we left Leicestershire, and all I had known for the first years of my life was violence and stress, not good, I was also undiagnosed autistic and possibly brain damaged from various injuries that never received medical help. I was already very damaged.
Things didn't get better as we fled Leicestershire and ended up homeless.

Jump to the early 90s, returning to Leicester, homeless, my family were housed on a Leicester sink estate, even worse than the one we escaped in 1988.
And this is where it all really kicked off.

We were in the constituency of Leicester West MP, Greville Janner, and, although I have no memory of the link between him in the past and him in the 90s and my family, he was apparently one of the people who my parents had a complaint against, he was one of the 'kerb-crawlers'. From the 80s.
This was according to my mother, this is not me alledging anything.

My parents believed it was 'God's will' That we had come back here to refresh this fight.

Right, well this is the most traumatic year of my life, in the early 90s and I am struggling to recall it to you.

My parents soon fell out with the neighbours on the new sink estate because my parents reported criminal activity, which is not the done thing on a sink estate, you keep your head down if you want to survive, a bit like when you are a rough sleeper :)
Anyway, among the incidents, my parents had got to know a family up the road called the 'G' family, A man called SG, his Mother, and a 13 year old boy, 'AG'.
Before long, my Mother said that SG was abusing AG and selling him for sex, and also that SG had a relationship with Greville Janner.
I have to say, I have no idea of the truth of this, but I was 12 years old.
As you can imagine, even this indirect situation is not great for the mind of a 12 year old, and I had lived 12 years of unsettled and harmful life already. 

Anyway. So this family and my family were clashing, and generally on a very bad sink estate, my family was attracting negative attention.
The situation became increasingly violent, and the severeity of the worst of the violence has scarred me for life, but I will return to trying to focus on the MP and cover up situation.

It is difficult to go back to being a traumatized 12 year old and put everything in order.

This is what I remember my parents saying.
They said that Greville Janner had framed a man called Frank Beck.

They said that Janner was responsible for the abuse and that the children abused had not known the difference between the two men.
They talked about someone being murdered at a children's home, and about the body being removed at night, I know no more about that.
My mum often spoke of Janner kerb crawling and using rent boys.
She mentioned the Holiday Inn as a venue for people using rent boys.

My parents again linked the violence we were suffering on the estate to the MPs and cover ups.

The matter of Janner and Beck was the main topic of conversation in our home, although, again, I do not recall as much as I now wish I did.

My parents were now locked in court battles again.

My Mum spoke of a care home boy, I am not sure I can name him, although he is named in the press a lot, according to my mum, this young man was being abused by Janner, and Frank Beck was putting a stop to it, my mum talked about Jannner taking this boy a bike, and Frank Beck not allowing him in to see the boy.

My mum got to know Frank Beck, she would visit him in prison, and she and I would cycle accross the city to visit the lady that Frank Beck was engaged to, I probably shouldn't name her, I will call her 'D', and she lived with a lodger, who also joined the conversation, while I played with Theo, the cat, and was told not to play with the cactus as it was dangerous.

I remember not really knowing what Mum and D and the lodger were talking about but I remember D. saying how she would like to paint on every bridge in Leicester 'Frank Beck is innocent!'.

I remember my parents fighting the police to do something about the violence we were suffering and also to do something about the Beck and Janner situation.

My Mum told us that the police were 'In Janner's pockets' which used to make us laugh at the image, but she told us it meant that they were on his payroll, did as he wanted in return for bribes.

Then my Mum got in a state of excitement because there was to be an investigation.
An officer called Chief Inspector Foster, of West Mercia Police, was to come and investigate the Beck and Janner matter.

My mum spent quite some time giving evidence. I am not sure now if she had to go to Charles Street or our local police station, but I remember during this time she took me to the local police station when I was shot with air rifle pellets on the estate, there was nothing for the police doctor to see, and my mum hadn't checked that I wasn't really wounded just pinged, but during that time the police acted co-operative and interested in our situation.

Anyway, unfortunately the Doctor Foster, as we called him, investigation, turned out to be a whitewash. Well, can anyone name a genuine investigation into such an issue during the 80s or 90s? No one who valued their job, life and home would dare!
Our lives were being wrecked because of this matter!

Frank was moved to a prison in Cambridge, Mum still went to visit him, she also spent a lot of time with his law firm, who were also our law firm, Ian Henning was the man holding evidence on the matter, and Mum often also spoke to John Harrison, who worked for the firm.

We had something to fear from  a legendary bunch of thugs called 'Grevvies Heavies', his protection brigade, thankfully I never met them, have no knowledge if they were even real.
But my parents said we were marked for reporting Janner, and we were at risk.
All I know is that we were at risk from constant and severe violence on the estate and that was real and has marked me for life, I had a breakdown when I was 12, and I believe that is why I have never really grown up properly.

I remember the time I ran to the police station to get help as we had no phone, and the police wouldn't always help, and I got chased by gang members and in fear of my life, I was lucky or God protected me.

I remember my mum pointing out a picture in the Leicester Mercury, Greville Janner making someone or something levitate, she talked about the 'magic circle' and how Greville's wife, in the background 'knew' about him.

We fled the Council estate amid escalating violence as more serious injuries occured.
We fled to a homeless hostel within a few miles of the house.
My parents and brothers were arrested.


I cannot give you much understanding but my mum says it was about speaking up about Janner, while the charges were about retaliating to violence on the estate.
Now, flash-forward to Jersey, same thing.

And in this flash-forward to me and Jersey, lets go into the police station that causes me to collapse or have nightmares.

In the police station in Leicester, my dad recounted that the police were knocking a drunk man about, and he knew the police intended him harm too.

My dad recalled how he walked round and round his cell, singing praise to God all night, and God protected him and didn't allow him to be harmed.
Unfortunately for me, I was already in collapse when Jersey police brutalized me, I could not stand, walk or sing, I was not fully conscious and could not, with all my effort, wake properly, but I flashed back to my Dad, singing praises to God all night in his cell, when he was imprisoned because of Greville Janner. In the police cell in Jersey, imprisoned because of the wrongdoing of the diocese of Winchester and the Deanery of Jersey,
 I cried out to my dad, 'Abba? Abba, eyphoh?' In Hebrew, the language my parents preferred us to speak, that was 'Dad, Dad, where are you?' 
But my Dad had died of a stroke a year before I was imprisoned.

Back to Leicester in the early 90s.

My parents and brothers were released and we spent 9 months in the homeless hostel, which was rough istelf, all ex-prisoners, dealers, addicts and other bad characters. This is when my younger brothers started to become deviant and delinquent, and I was now elective mute, severely traumatised as my parents continued to fight court cases and my sister, age 14 and myself now 13, were put in a separate unit from our parents in the hostel, placed with unfamiliar and badly behaved adults.

My mum and Frank's fiance, and Ian Henning, continued to fight Frank's case.
But sadly, one day, my mum, in tears, told us Frank had died suddenly while playing table tennis in prison. She said it had been sudden, and that he was a happy man, looking forward to his appeal.

Then, later, she and others, claimed Frank had been murdered.

Frank's funeral was at Gilroes crematorium, not far from us, my brother and I used to deliver newspapers round that area. My mum and brothers attended, and then Mum went to Dartmoor, where Frank's ashes were scattered on Hay Tor. Because Frank had liked dartmoor, was he in Dartmoor prison at one point?

Anyway, Ian Henning still held evidence, and so the matter wasn't over.

Ian Henning was killed in a motorbike 'accident'.

My mum said Ian was murdered because he held the evidence. She said his bike was sabotaged.
This was never confirmed. The police, if they were on Janner's side, would of course not be willing to investigate.

I remember Ian only vaguely, grey hair and white shirt, we used to sometimes sit in his office on hot Leicester afternoons.

After Frank's death, D, his fiance, was no longer interested in fighting for Greville Janner to be dealt with, her part had been merely to see the man who she loved, freed.

The MP mentioned in the early part of this statement, who I will call KV, was consulted by my parents over the Janner matter, but seemed to be involved/obstructing investigations.

With Ian's death, the beck and Janner war was closed down, Ian was the last evidence holder.
And my family had now fled to the ghettos of another city, and our parents warned us that if we valued our lives, we would never again speak of the Beck and Janner matter.

Well. My life is crippled by the Church of England, who re-enacted the Beack and Janner war through the Diocese and Deanery war, and destroyed as I am, and with everyone speaking out, I am no longer afraid to speak, and after 22 years, it is good to share, to get the darkness in my injured mind out into the open.

It is time the culture of cover-ups ends, Church of England, police and politicians, it is time and it is out in the open, expose this scheme of covering up for important people at the expense of the vulnerable wronged. It is time for police, parliment, Church, social services and all authorities to change, stop making genuine comeplaints into insanity on the part of the complainants.
No more Steel-Sloss-Bailhache-Janner-Foster etc etc cover ups.

Here is my enduring memory of the Leicester sink estate 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FaN1YYNILUI